Ugh. I am feeling a bit crazy. Two full days of ctx activity (not particularly regular so not "labor" but still, something). No real cervical change (perhaps more effaced), no movement of cervix forward but we figured that when it does move forward and gets pressure from baby, we're on.
Talked to MW and emailed birth photographer. Then it all stopped.
Got an adjustment and it started up in a more early-labor-like pattern (for me) - light ctxs but kept coming. Then, more intense and I thought, "gee, maybe we're headed in the right direction..." And they stopped.
The thing is I don't WANT baby to come today - not until much later, anyway! DS2 and DH are at the museum for their breakfast with a paleontologist and I'm about to jump in the shower before taking the other boys up to meet them for the free activities. After that, we're going to go to DH's studio to do some maternity pictures. First time EVER. And, yes, he had just as much photo and lighting equipment last time; he just never took the pics.
Oh, and my mom (who's supposed to come stay with the kids) is unavailable ALL day and won't be home until 1am because the high school she teaches at is having homecoming today.
So, really, I don't WANT to be in labor right now. But it's still driving me crazy as though there's something I can do that I haven't and that's why I'm not.
I really need to stop trying to guess when something is going to happen or interpret the signs and symptoms and just wait. I think with all of this happening this weekend it was really hard to do. I hope that now, with no signs of labor at a bad time, I can just go on and not feel like a ticking time bomb, kwim?
But I want my baby!
I have pretty much everything set up and ready for the birth and I keep thinking about sitting in the glider holding my little baby... and I get very impatient!
I just keep telling myself it could be another week and that's okay. Really.