Queer Conceptions--November - Page 11

[Mizyellow]

Kristen/Scarlett- NOOOOOOOOOOO! I am so sorry, that is just terrible. I wish I could give you a big hug right now and bring over a big bottle of wine. I am so sorry. There are no other words but I am sorry. Take a little extra care of yourself.

Isa- I will have to check it out. How are things on the testing front? What a frustrating time to have been out of commission.

Is it absolutely silly that i missed you guys yesterday?!

Seraf- I would love to get together sometime, we are doing the holiday hop in dec, we go to the lights at the zoo all the time, and are frequent Cosi visitors. anything sound fun?

AFM: My temps jumped this morning, 98.5, I took a test and I might see a line, the faintest line of all time (or I am just insane). I am not holding my breath (ok maybe a little) I am sure I will test 300 times today.

[seraf]

Scarlet  I'm so sorry for your loss

[LibraryLady]

Oh Scarlett~  I'm crying at my desk for you this morning, that's just so cruel.  Biggest of hugs, though I know that's not even slightly adequate. xoxoxoxox

MizYellow~ I don't think it's silly that you missed us, I missed you!!  I clicked on my bookmark for the Queer Parenting page and then hollered out loud in frustration! I must have come back to the page a million times wondering what was up with everyone.  I'm really excited by your temp jump and faintest of faint lines!!!  Test a million times today and give us an update.

[Miss Scarlett]

Update: I should have followed my gut. The pharmacist that usually helps didn't think I should do progesterone, DP's collaborating MD didn't get back with me Monday, but I stopped DP in mid step yesterday and said "I want to figure out the dose of progesterone today, I feel like we should do it", I started bleeding two hours later. I just got my lab results back, Progesterone = 1.1. 

I could pretty much throw up right now. This was avoidable. 

[prettyisa]

Scarlett--I said it on your blog, but I'll say it again: I'm so sorry to hear about this.  It's so sad and frustrating and I hate that it happened to you!  I guess it's small comfort to know that next time you'll be prepared with the progesterone, but at least you know for sure now.

I missed everyone, too!  I was checking in all day as an exercise in futility!

[seraf]

Scarlett, avoidable loss is awful, is that the last piece in the puzzle?  Did you do anything different this cycle?  Do you now know the whole winning combo?  In that way even tho it's terrible, is it hopeful that you're only 1 month away?  Since you've had so much practice you can just hit it again?  Osha was conceived 2 weeks after an early miscarriage, It's hard to be hopeful, but knowing about the progesterone issue for you is a huge thing.

[justrose13]

scarlett, i'm so sorry... i hate that this happened to you. i'm going to echo what the last few posters said and say that i finally got pg after switching donors, miscarried, followed the same protocol (plus Vit. D which was severly low), and got pg the very next cycle we tried. i really really hope that if you can follow the same winning formula + adding progesterone that you can have repeatablity. sending you much love and light in this really hard time. take care of yourself. xo

[milletpuff]

Oh Scarlett, I am so incredibly sorry. What a terrible roller coaster. Loss after trying SO LONG is just incredibly unfair and heartbreaking. x 1 million

[indigoscot]

oh no scarlett!!!!!  i read your blog and hoped that it wouldn't be this bad... i am so, so sorry for your loss.  and knowing low progesterone was the issue (so you are prepared for next time) while definitely good is cold comfort right now. 

many hugs coming your way.

g

[lisedea]

Hello--I am new to posting on this forum--although I have been reading it for the past few months. My partner and I are using Midwest Sperm Bank for an at home semination  this weekend...we are excited and ready to start! Last month we used fresh sperm and it didn't work...we have decided that we will go back and forth between the bank and known donor and hope that something works!

I am sorry to hear about your loss, Scarlett..  

[LibraryLady]

Scarlett~ Others have said it better, so I'll just echo that I think you've got the magic formula (I'm certain the new donor had something to do with it). Don't give up. You can and will make this happen. I'm just sorry you had to go through this first.  DP sends you biggest hugs too xoxoxo

Seraf~ I love your pic!

[LibraryLady]

Lise~ Welcome and good luck! You've come to the right place xo

[escher]

Hi, Everyone. I'm glad to be back in touch with all of you!

First, Scarlett:  I am so so sorry that this happened to you. It isn't fair at all. You had worked so hard for the bfp, and you deserved it so much. I'm so sorry that it didn't work out. I hear you about feeling especially angry that it might have been preventable with progesterone. I'm sure it doesn't help at all to know that I felt the same way after my maybe-chemical in September. Hopefully this was somehow a warm-up cycle for your body, and next cycle you'll get pregnant easily with a sticky healthy baby. But I'm so sorry right now that you're having to go through this. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. 

Lisedea: Welcome to QC! This is a great board (especially when we're not all trying to cope with a new forum set-up). I look forward to getting to know you! 

Mizyellow: Oh! How exciting! I have everything crossed for you. Let us know if you test again, please! (and I missed you guys too!)

Seraf: Baby dreams sound encouraging. I hope your insems go well!

Prettyisa: I have everything crossed for you too!

AFM: Just having my own little gloomfest about not being pregnant.  It's silly. I CHOSE to take this cycle off, and I liked having last cycle off. But I'm not enjoying this one at all. And I'm especially not enjoying pregnant people at all (IRL. I still like you Library, Wehrli, Millet, etc.). I can't imagine why pregnant people might want to see me or talk to me. I mean really, just because they are my friends? (I would do the stick out the tongue smiley here, but I can't figure out smilies. Oh well.)

[LibraryLady]

Escher~ I hear you for sure. Even the cycles you choose to sit out, you can't help but think 'What if...."  I'm sorry that IRL pregnant ladies are bugging you, but that's totally understandable too.  It was always torture doing the grocery shopping and seeing all the bellies.  Biggest hugs xoxo

[carmen358]

So sorry for your loss, Scarlett Hang in there....it may not be any comfort but at least you know that you can indeed get pregnant! Take care and heal well.

[burg]

Very sorry for your loss, Scarlett 

[seraf]

I knew it was time to start trying again when I started getting tortured by all the pregnant bellies again.  I was ok for a while, but I'm all baby hungry again.

Library, I was a hunter for halloween.  I couldn't think of anything (in the 5 minutes before we went out), couldn't find leather or lace or anything.  The nurses I work with all thought I had pretty good looking fake blood, but it was mostly corn syrup so it eventually dripped down my lips.  Tasty, tho!

I like all the pictures everyone has put up.

I'm going to try to put up a movie.  You don't have to watch if you don't want to.  Osha's first war head.

Nevermind.  Guess I can't figure it out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95A4-3nwung

[LibraryLady]

Seraf~ That's hilarious! It made me pucker up just watching it!

Okay, who's figured out how to edit/ reset their signature lines? And can you help those technologically disabled among us?

[justrose13]

seraf, too cute!

library, go to the profile tab and edit your preferences... near the bottom of the page is your signature. i can't figure out the smilies though... i just get like one page of them but can't scroll down, also can't post them as colon then code. does anyone have any tips for that? i see some ppl have found other smilies that i couldn't access...

ETA: i found this thread, explaining the smilie situation, in the questions and suggestions forum. http://www.mothering.com/community/forum/thread/1277787/emoticons#post_16033679 

[seraf]

I now have fewer smilies than I had this morning.  I want the fist shaking one.  Or the swearing one.  My sperm didn't make it tonight.  I just went downstairs and found a fed ex door tag on my mom's door.  I can't pick it up today because the station near me is closed and the tank is going to a station 30 miles away, and they'll be closed by the time it gets back to them.  So they can bring it back tomorrow, sometime, but they won't leave it in my entryway the way they ALWAYS do, because it requires a signature.  And if I miss it because the try to deliver it to the wrong door, well, I'm going to make it really really clear which door to pound on.  And it took me 30 minutes to find out all that.  I think I was swearing at a rate of 400 f-bombs an hour.  Not that I need it tonight, but if I miss them tomorrow, I will be livid.  To say the least.