If I go through with induction (which I'm sure I will, but there's the denial talking again), I have less than 6.5 weeks to go. I know that's more than some of you, which I think only adds to my anxiousness, lol! I just don't feel prepared AT ALL, even though I technically have all of the essentials but a car seat. I'm just not mentally prepared!
I want to push dh's "work from home" situation to at least the second week in December. Keeping 4 homeschooled kids relatively quite when it's too cold/snowy/icy to shove them outdoors so Daddy can take phone calls is extremely stressful. Otoh, I'm already exhausted and uncomfortable, and have (mostly unreasonable) fears about going into labor earlier than I usually do.
Bottom line, I'm an irrational basket case right now!
I truly do look forward to meeting ds, and I'm sure I'll feel a huge wave of relief once he's here. In the meantime, I'm pretty sure I'm doomed to about 6.5 weeks of serious anxiety!
Here's to attempting some quasi-meditation in my house of chaos!