Wow, so glad you started this thread mamaw/two and so relieved to hear that I have so much in common with others here! I could have written parts of your posts! I've only had the one loss, back in early April at 5w4d, which I just crossed over yesterday. Yay! We too had tried for a year to get that pregnancy, and now another 6+ months of irregular and long cycles and exhausting frustrating heartbreaking trying. Actually had an appointment to get the ball rolling on fertility specialist later this month. (We also have a 3 year old DD who we had no trouble concieving or carrying!)
I started out very positive and treating this as a whole new pregnancy, and mostly I feel very different about this one. But it's a real mind game, isn't it? The "anniversary" mark of where we lost the last one hit me so much harder than I expected it to, especially when it seemed my symptoms were dropping off and my temp took a dive. I'm still temping and taking the rest of my ICs every day to reassure myself, btw.
Today my temp shot back up and I'm feeling good, being past the past loss date(s) really makes a difference, doesn't it?
I love that mantra to no5no5, and have been trying to remind myself of that constantly. Today I am pregnant, and I'm thankful for that. Also following advice I've read from PAL mamas to construct small milestones to get yourself through, that seems to help me. So next is an u/s in a week or so, trying to hold out as long as I can for a good shot at a HB. After that, 8 weeks will feel good. Then OB appt at 10 weeks....
Oh and also continuing acupuncture has been amazing for the anxiety! If I could only go every other day or so, I think I'd be ok.
If you can find a community acupuncture place near you (they'll have substantially lower rates, mine is only $15-35 per session), I highly recommend it!