! I'm sure you'll have many great tales to tell them when they're older!
I hope your BFing issues work out soon and the boys get that "a-ha!" moment.
. That reminds me of my feelings after my first birth.
I would go so far as to say I had/have PTSD from that birth and I know with a traumatic birth (including ones that just go so far awry from your plans and visions for them) that that's not unusual at all. There are almost certainly some tribes here with other mamas who will totally get it if you want to talk.
Farren, a wrap is an awesome carrier because it's basically a one-size-fits-all. You really do have to wrap them snuggly to start with, though, because they do loosen up over time (just in wearing, even). As well, just basic moving around will allow shifting in any carrie if it's not tied tight enough. Stretchies are quite often tied too loose to start with, so that's probably the problem. When I'm showing mamas how to use them, I generally have them pre-tie it (which is standard for a stretchy wrap) while pulling it snug enough that there's no obvious slack in the whole thing. Using *only* the material's stretch to have room for baby gives you the most support possible. Hope that makes sense!
Julie, so sorry about the thrush!
I hope you feel better soon!
Lochia: Someone asked about clear or mucousy... Mine varies between clearish to light bleeding now. The clearish discharge is a weird thing that's normal in lochia, afaik. For me, it's not generally mucousy, though.
Eliana is continuing to have at least somewhat mucousy stools.
She's more fussy, too, and will sometimes end up burping well after a feeding. She threw up (everything) last night just as we walked in to a restaurant. It's NOT a good thing when the first sign the baby threw up is the droplets on the *floor*.
Thankfully I had a change of clothes and just enough receiving blankets and burp cloths to clean everything with... I was wishing I had a new carseat, too, though!
She snuggled on DH after that and slept through the entire meal.
She is so definitely growing and changing! Three weeks (plus, but I'm not counting!!) now. She looks around and really studies things and her head is getting so much more steady. I think I got a "real" smile earlier today when she was looking directly at me. We'll see if those continue. Judah started at about this age with "maybe" smiles that were later confirmed because he kept giving them.
With him, the first for-sure BIG smiles were at 5 weeks, so I'm looking forward to that in the not-too-distant future with Eliana. It's hard to have her growing and changing so much.. I want her to stay a newborn! But I'm grateful to have so many wonderful things to look forward to, too.
We went to a Christmas tree farm yesterday and got her first Christmas tree.
There was almost no one else there (no one, when we started) and it was nice to have some privacy in the middle of the field to nurse her. Had her in a mei tai and ended up turning her from tummy-to-tummy to a cradle hold *in* the mei tai (not exactly a standard position, but it worked!) so she could nurse. She was not at al interested in sitting up to eat.
I'm guessing I do have overactive letdown with her continuing the habits of latching, sucking really fast and swallowing a ton, then letting all the milk dribble and seeming less interested even though she's clearly not finished. That doesn't help with the tummy troubles, either! Hopefully it'll settle down before too long.
Anyone else tried the Milkies Milk Saver things? I got one last week and am thrilled to be getting up to a couple of ounces of milk *without* pumping, just from my most-overactive side when she's feeding on the other. Who knows, maybe I'll have enough to actually give her a bottle to try someday.
I haven't been using it consistently, but it's very cool!
Gotta finish off the tree, clean up all the ornament boxes, and get to bed... all before she wakes up. And all I really want to do is