I just want... *warning: whiney post*

[smeep]

my parents.

This whole situation is so horrible. I'm staying with a friend, but I feel so alone, and so at a dead end.

I've mentioned to my dad on several occasions how I would really like to stay with them (my history with them is a very long, frustrating story, with faults on both our ends)...he's never once given me a blanket no (there was a time, almost two years ago, where I was nearly homeless due to a UAV ex, and the second I made a peep about possibly staying there I got a big fat NO)...so this is a very good sign, but I'm afraid to get my hopes up. I finally just got new meds, I'm working on getting counseling started back up.

It's November already. This baby will most likely be here sometime in February. I'm getting more and more worried about where I'm going to be when baby gets here. I can't stay with my friend with a new baby...that's not fair to ANYONE involved, and I'm sleeping on the couch as it is.

I have so many issues with my family and don't really WANT to be there, but I feel like it's the best place I can go right now, and, frankly, I want my parents back again...I miss feeling like I have parents. The last time I really felt like I had a mother was when I was in labour with DS. That was almost 5 years ago.

I just want to go ahead and go there and stay with them, so I can spend the holidays with my family and stop freaking out worrying over where I'm going to live, stop being depressed over the fact that I don't know what's going to happen, and stop feeling so damn uncomfortable because I'm not in my own space.

I just want to enjoy what's left of my pregnancy.

[vannienicole]

Then do it. Tell them. I know how hard it is to miss your parents.

[Hollycrand]

I agree with PP. Lay all your cards out on the table and straight out ask your parents if you can stay with them.

[lilyka]

Tell your daddy you need him. That you want to come stay with them and need their love and support. Don't wait for an invite. ask. beg if you have to. There is no shame in it.

[red and lulu]

Originally Posted by lilyka

Tell your daddy you need him. That you want to come stay with them and need their love and support. Don't wait for an invite. ask. beg if you have to. There is no shame in it.

This. And

[Super~Single~Mama]

Forget asking. Have you thought about just showing up at your parents house? And walking in the door?

My parents would always take me in, under any circumstances (well....maybe not if they move to live on their boat....), and I know your's have said no before....but not when you were actually homeless. Now you are. Go home, I've never met a parent who would turn away their child who was at their door.

[smeep]

I went over there this weekend. I took the advice from everyone and sat down with my dad and just asked, point blank. He said that he's happy about how I've handled things so far (aka, getting new meds and not spiraling downhill with everything ex did) and that he and my mom have talked about it a bit, but that I need to talk to her myself and he'll "break the ice" before I do it (my mom and I have a lot of issues, so it's really hard for me to go to her for anything). This morning I asked if he talked to her on their date last night and he said that he didn't, but that, "We won't let you and the baby be on the streets, so don't worry about that."

So, while it's not a certain 100% yes, it looks like it's probably going to happen. There will be a lot of discussion, I'm sure, but I'm so happy to just hear that. I'm still afraid to get really excited, and am very nervous...I don't want to get my hopes up, but I am. I guess it's a good thing, because it's just more determination to NOT screw things up.

Thanks for your support, ladies.