I'm feeling really mad at my mother today and I need to vent my frustrations a bit. If you read my last big vent thread (my name used to be tinyactsofcharity) then you might remember that my father passed away in May and my step-father passed away in August so this pregnancy has been rather stressful.
Well, the baby is due tomorrow but I'm not feeling any signs of impending labor (I'm irritable about that but I also really want to go to Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows on Thursday night so I'll get over it) and my mother is leaving town altogether on Saturday and won't be back until Wednesday. She's going because she wants to be out of town and distracted on her anniversary. She also thinks that my having a homebirth is bizarre and she doesn't want to be around when I'm in labor.
I wasn't planning on having her here during labor but I did kind of picture her coming over immediately after the birth to see the new baby. When I was in labor with DS my dad was with me the whole time and it's sad for me that he won't be with me this time. My mom and step-dad came to the hospital as I was pushing and sat in the hallway waiting. My MIL was also there and while I found her presence somewhat inhibiting (I barely knew her at the time) it was fun to have all the grandparents come right in soon after the birth to greet DS.
I'm really irritated by my mom's disinterest because I feel like there's really no one else to BE interested. I almost want to just not even tell her when the baby is here considering the fact that she doesn't seem to care much.
My siblings (19 and 16) will be in town so I guess that's an upside. My brother drives me absolutely insane but he'll be very excited to see the baby and my sister was so sad to be out of town at summer camp when DS was born, I'm pretty sure she'll be over the moon to come see this baby when it's brand new. The problem is that my siblings are pretty typical teenagers in that they really aren't particularly helpful so I feel like we are just on our own pretty much.
I'm just feeling neglected I think. :( Sorry to be a downer amongst all the happy baby stories!