Burnt out on unschooling. Dd is 13, only child, never been to school, we have always unschooled.
Unschooling has always been a joy with her, she is a great kid and I have always been grateful for the free life we have together. Like most homeschoolers I have had my times of doubt here and there, but mostly have been sure and steady on the unschooling path.
This year I have had doubts to the point of sinking into depression. Is it just time for something else? I feel like our life is boring - hers AND mine. I can't seem to provide a stimulating, interesting life for her plus do the daily stuff to maintain home, chores, meals, animals etc. I want to do more with my own life yet I feel like could do so much more to facilitate dd's education... stuff I'm NOT doing... where is the time for any of it?
Discipline and schedule are very hard for me, we became unschoolers not so much for philosophical reasons but more out of my lack of discipline.
She is not pushed in any way by our unschooling life, and she is the type that thrives on a challenge. I feel like school (the right school) would be exciting and stimulating for her.
It's not that she doesn't have stuff to do - she does theater, art, swim team, singing, homeschool group. But I don't feel she is intellectually challenged and I don't know how to give her that. I am a great mom but I am NOT a great teacher. I don't know how to push her intellectually.
I have thought lately about having her try out a local small charter school (there is no way we would send her to our public middle school) but I just found out today they have no space. So, school is not an option this year, and that was what I had begun to count on as the next step.
Maybe I only imagine that school would be great for her, but I was starting to get excited about the possibility of having my OWN life, not feeling BAD all the time about our "lazy" life, and seeing her stimulated and challenged. So I guess the only answer is I have to totally change everything about myself, get disciplined, get up earlier and make more out of the day. I don't feel up to it. Ugh. Now what?