I have been mulling over the idea of doing more study next year, by distance study, so at least I wouldn't have to travel, and I would get more mental stimulation that I am feeling a need for. The other thing I have been considering is part time work.
But the last two days I have had a lot on my plate with things I had to do outside the home, so I just wasn't here to keep going with my routine or my MM chores. I realised this morning that the place was looking like a mess after only 2 days of letting things slide, and I just felt like crying. I feel overwhelmed as I am a hamster on a wheel, and if I stop going round and round constantly, everything is going to fall apart.
We have a lot of stresses in our life right now, with business worries, concerns over elderly relatives, plus I am getting a lot of peri-menopausal symptoms; all these combined are making me feel panicky, so I don't know how much of my worry about these house concerns, is just in my head. Well I know there is a big world outside my house, but when I spend day in, day out going round in circles here just to keep all the balls in the air, I do start to wonder how will I cope if I take on study or work.
How do others who study or work, find time to keep the place in order? Do most of you have cleaners? Or do you only do what is essential and leave the mopping, dusting etc till it gets really bad? (which is what I used to do before I started doing MM!) Or are you naturally organised, which I am not....do you take everything in your stride?
Or do you have to spend the weekends cleaning and catching up with laundry, because you are busy all week? I suppose I am just wondering what is the norm in other households around the planet....
Those of you who are SAHMs like me, do you ever feel overwhelmed often too, or am I just a rare breed who struggles to keep it all under control.
We can't afford a cleaner so there is only me to do it. The children help with some jobs, but getting them to help with cleaning is still a work in progress, even though the two oldest are teenagers. In fact I find that my youngest is more helpful....young children seem to like asking to help with chores, but they seem to grow out of that when puberty hits! DH can't do any more than he already does...he is working so hard to keep his small business going, plus he does the lawns and the weeding, and any big outdoor jobs.
I don't want to put my life on hold for years just to keep the house tidy and clean, but maybe I have to drop my standards and let the place go back to not being so clean, just so I can have a life.