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Instead of thinking every feeling/symptom is a sign of pregnancy like many woman do, I'm the opposite. I NEVER have heartburn...seriously never, yet I've had it the last two days. I'm also peeing a lot which is unsual for me. Regardless of whether one should read anything into that, many women do. I find myself doing the opposite. I am so convinced that it didn't work and I'm not pregnant, that I'm sad now even though I haven't tested yet and I'm early in my luteal phase. I think maybe I just want it so much and I've waited so long because of medical stuff, that I feel like it would be too good for it to happen for me. We are just started to TTC, but I've been with my hubby since I was 18 and I'm 33 now. We have a wonderful marriage and this baby is so wanted, but I had a host of medical issues to get resolved before we could try. We're starting much later than I had wanted and I can't imagine it happening for me. I know there's no logic to that, but I find myself worrying about whether the medical stuff impacted my fertility, if I have less chance than younger women, etc. No real reason. I just know that I will be getting my period next week and it's making me sad. I was so excited to start TTC. It was amazing to finally get to that point after all we overcame. Now I can't even be excited because I'm disappointed preemptively. I'm a dork, I know. Anyone else do this? I wonder if it's better than thinking you are pregnant and then being surprised when AF comes. I didn't expect to be kinda sad now though. Don't get me wong, I'm not actually depressed or anything and things are going well, I just hate feeling like it can't be happening. Okay, rant over. Thanks for listening.
