Hello, my name is Nicole and I am the mother of a beautiful baby girl named Taya Marie.....she was and is my lifeline. Taya was 28mo old and passes away on Jan 29th from complications at a hospital from an asthma attack. I can just say that I understand exactly where your coming from, eall the feelings you expressed are the same ones I have. I will not have anymore children and cant stand to be around any rite now. I have always been a woman of faith and raised all my children in the Lordand my eldest is 21yrs old but with Taya being gone, I dont know what I believe anymore. My daughter is especting a little girl that is due on Tayas' Bday, dont know how much morfe I can take. I feel as if my baby girl and my daughters pregnancy has been ripped away from me. Anyway, congrats on your baby girl......i just saw myselfin your post and wanted to respond....take care honey.