Dh's uncle...

[dakotablue]

I'm not sure what to feel yet. Dh's uncle committed suicide this Saturday morning or Friday night.

We've know there was something off with him for a long time, I think he was manic depressive (monthly cycles) Anxiety disorders (runs in family) and possible aspergers.

Details below don't read if you are uncomfortable.

I don't know how to process or what to think. The neighbor was over that night and said Uncle was sick, she thinks he had the flu and was throwing up. She asked if he wanted her to call my FIL, he said no. She did anyway and FIL waited until the morning to head over. He says he knew the moment he walked in the door from the scent in the air. He had cut one of his wrists after lightly cutting his neck. Then he wrapped it in his sweatshirt and ran through the upstairs and died in front of his bedroom door. He seems to have bled out very quickly.

I don't think he thought it would work, I don't know. Its such as waste. He was almost 46 (on the 29th) never married. But....

It was just so so sudden. Dh's dad is having a really hard time, this was his younger brother and he was a close friend off and on (depending on moods of uncle wanting to be near people). And he found him.

Argg. I had to leave their house yesterday as I started having lots of BH contractions front he grief/ stress. They calmed down after I returned to our house, but MW / and me were concerned about possible preterm labor as they were becoming 1 every 5 minutes.

I feel like I can't grieve because of being pregnant....

I just don't know what to do other than support Dh....

[Liquesce]

I'm very sorry for your family's loss.  :(   Don't be afraid to grieve.  I've grieved, albeit for different things, through two pregnancies now, and while I understand your fears you can't stop your feelings ... you can only stop them from showing, which may "look better" to others but it won't feel any better to you.