I apologize if this is totally irrational. It is very early in the morning.
I have back pain. Mainly at night only. I wake up in horrific pain and all I can do is wait it out. I can barely catch my breath, it hurts so bad.
I have been to two doctors. I take a muscle relaxer, and that does help a little. I keep a detailed back pain "log" if you will. Some nights I don't have any at all. I can't find a link to anything in my diet that causes it- although if I am overlooking something, please let me know!
Basically, both doctors feel that this is lifestyle related and not anything I need a specialist for. I totally accept that it is probably hard on my body because I am overweight. I am working on losing weight but that isn't happening over night. I also lift some for my job as a pre K teacher. That is just part of the job, no getting around that either.
Second opinion doctor suggested a chiropractor. He thinks that is the best way to get me some relief.
I have to admit that I am terrified of chiropractors and up until now my fear of them has been worse than my pain tolerance. But not anymore.
I went to one once, because my ears weren't draining properly. The way he twisted my neck scared me. I mean, yes, it did help, I did feel the ears draining right away, but perhaps I watch too many horror movies. I had nightmares about it and I cried. Perhaps a totally irrational reaction, but truly, I was scared.
So now I wonder what will happen to me if I go? For back pain? I am afraid that I will cry in the office or something. This is not covered by my insurance, but I am willing to go in to debt to get some relief- that is how bad this pain currently is. I have to do something, I simply can not live like this any longer. So I am going to suck it up and call for an appointment on Monday. What can I expect? I am scared, but I don't know what else I can do.





I'm sorry you're in so much pain.




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