I have been pregnant as follows
Nov 2004-July 2005 (resulted in stillbirth at 35w3d)
Mar 07-Nov 07 (healthy baby girl)
Sept 08-Nov 08 (miscarriage at 11 weeks)
Feb 09-Nov 09 (healthy baby boy)
sept/Oct 10-present (currently approx 8 weeks)
I have had a history of depression my whole life.. I first recognized it around age 8, but this past approx 6 years I have been feeling so bad, I want to check myself into a hospital. I have feelings of being OK, usually around the time I go to therapy (it figures).. but a few days later I am back to feeling lethargic, anxious, sad... antidepressants seem to work for a while but then I just start feeling awful again. Could I be in the midst of a 6-year bout with PPD? did my hormones just never go back to normal? Or is this just part of regular depression?
I am so tired of feeling like this! Thanks for any help.