Lisa: So very sorry.
Escher: Hang in there--those magic OPKs will give you clear signs soon, I think.
Starling: Umm...WOW. Pregnant until proven otherwise, right? Fingers crossed!
First off, lisedea -
Escher: Are you doing IUIs at a clinic? Any chance your RE can scan you and find out what your lil' ovaries are up to in there? When we were doing unmedicated cycles, there were a few times I had my NP scan me to see WTF was going on, to see if it was time to insem or not.
Everyone - thanks for all of the positive thoughts about my "slightly-diminished-in-quality" eggs. I really just needed that night to cry - and I cried a lot - and during the day the next day, but as most things, it got better with time. It is what it is.
kgulbransen - THANK YOU for telling me that fragmentation is common. I prohibited myself from looking up anything on the internet about it because I didn't want to drive myself crazy, but you writing that made me feel a lot better. It just made me remember that not all hope is lost for these embryos we transferred this time, and for the ones waiting for us in the freezer.
Starling&diesel - I hope your symptoms are preggo symptoms! Sounds like your transfer was more pleasant than mine. I wanted to ask you, during any of your IVFs, did you experience bloating in the second week? I ask because:
AFM: I'm feeling incredibly bloated, and it started on Sunday, which would have only been 5 days past 3dt. I thought it was because I ate a bunch of crappy food all day (Christmas cookies, cheese and crackers, etc), but it hasn't gone away. It seems to feel a little better in the morning but it's still there. Not as bad as it was after my retrieval, but close. It hurts to bend, sit, stand up from sitting... it's really fun! I'm not really sure how OHSS works and if this might be a mild case of it. I had some bloating a few days after my IUI the last time I did a medicated cycle, and he scanned me to make sure I was okay, and it was just mild OHSS. But this is a full week after my transfer - I didn't expect I'd be feeling effects of the stims still. I'm alternating the PIO shots with the suppositories, which has been GREAT because the suppositories seem to come with less side effects. Anyway, S&D and anyone else who has done IVF - have you felt the bloating a week after transfer? (also of note - we did a lupron trigger and two 1000 unit HCG shots to prevent OHSS - the HCG trigger is 10,000, so I doubt the mere 2000 I got last week would give me any side effects.)
Beta on Friday - I feel like I'm in the same place I always am at this time during the tww - I've resigned myself to NOT being pregnant, but am forcing myself to stay positive, so then when I think I might be, I get crazy excited. I just feel like I want it so badly and therefore it just won't happen. It's like winning the lottery - it only happens to other people. Gah - I need to ditch the negativity!!
Escher~ How many insems are you going to do? I think that with the signs you're getting, and what you know of your signs in the past, scheduling soon is a very good idea. Sooner's better than later, for sure, and if you know you're close, get the swimmers in there. 5G makes sense too~ if they can scan your follies, they should, just to be on the safe side, but it still sounds like it's excellent timing for sure.
5G~ I can't answer any of your questions, but I do agree that you should try to ac-cen-tu-ate the positive. Pregnant until proven otherwise! Though I also know the emotional value of assuming it's a 'no.' Do keep us posted!!! xoxo
Lisa- I am sorry, m/c has got to be the worst feeling in the world. My advice is drink lots of wine and eat lots of food. I am hugging you online right now. :(
Amanda- When is your ultrasound again? I can't wait to hear how it goes!
Starling- ooooh sounds promising! 1 more week to test! Youa re much more patient than I.
Scarlett- glad you seem to be doing well, hope the holidays are making your break enjoyable!
Krista- I don't think we have discussed it but no my donor is not in the Fremont area. He is older which made me nervous at first but he has good swimmers!
Library- I bet your tummy is really starting to get big now! Not much longer now! How close are you to your 3rd trimester?
AFM- THank you little baby jesus I am HOME! Oh my god I was so excited I almost didn't mind the freezing temps! My overwhelming morning sickness is a little better, it hits at random parts of the day but isn't ALL day, thank that little baby jesus again. My colon is a disaster however and I am going to the GI doc tomorrow to see if they can get me to um poop. Sexy I know. Barely 8 weeks pregnant and I am only wearing maternity pants for no other reason but that I am filled with excrement. Amazing. :) I get another ultrasound Monday to check on things in there, if I pass I will have made it past the latest m/c I have ever had!!! Woo! I am soo nervous and excited but I think this baby might really be sticking!
5G: Hang in there! I'm so so so hoping that Friday is your day.
Starling: You are waiting another week to test?! If the transfer day IS implantation day, and you already have symptoms...ok, ok...your decision and all...but yikes! I'd have a hard time holding out.
Escher: Congrats on making a decision. I think this will be your month, but just in case...I'd plan on two IUIs with an u/s or two (if you can) next time around. It is amazing how much easier the u/s makes the timing (especially with a trigger shot--it is a slippery slope). Good luck tomorrow morning!
Lise: More coming your way. How are you doing?
AFM: I really really liked the midwifery practice that we visited today. One of the great things about it is the hip boutiquey neighborhood it is in (though this is related to the downside, which is that it is 50 minutes drive away). We had amazing Thai food for lunch afterward and then spent some cash at a super-cute maternity and baby store afterward--yay for clearance sale bras and nursing shirts! Oh, and MizYellow--my u/s is on Thursday.
Escher~ YAY!!!!!!! I'm sending every vibe your way, plus the power of the opks!!!!! I had only one IUI at a time and it worked eventually, so I'm thinking the best of thoughts for you xoxox
Yellow~ Yikes! Sounds like a semi-miserable trip, and a miserable situation now! My grandma swears by Sunsweet Plum Smart juice, so maybe you can give that a try? Good luck with the u/s and still thinking stickiest thoughts for your li'l bean.
AHope~ Thai food, yum! I've craved a lot of hot and sour soup lately. And yay for clearance sales, woohoo! Glad you liked the midwife, despite the distance.
Went to our faculty Christmas party this evening and it turned out to be a guided wine tasting. Thanks for nothing! I've been to better celebrations, that's for sure. I was so jealous of the Shiraz!! At least I could try the chocolate, that was good. Now I'm very sleepy. I was energetic yesterday, but not today for sure.
Lise - Oh no! So sorry to hear the news. My heart goes out to you.
5G/Starling - Hooray for bloated baby making bellies! I can't wait to do 2 veggie dances this week!
Esher - The IUI timing sounds perfect. I never fully trust my monitor. I am pretty certain it hates me. Today is cd12, and it's yet to even tell me to test. Stupid thing. I typically O between cd16-20, so it's always a toss up. And since, I use 3 (yes, three) different types of OPK's, I mostly rely on the u/s. I should buy stock in OPK's.
AFM - I am becoming EXTREMELY frustrated with the TTC process. Aside from always feeling like there's something "wrong" (alien, thin uterus lining, no mature follies, etc.), I now feel like my new RE isn't aggressive enough. This is the second month with no meds. I have a hard enough time not producing mature eggs on my own, so not having meds, certainly doesn't help my ovaries. I seem to always have cysts on my right ovary, and both docs I've hard are like 'ah, it's no biggie we'll rely on the left." Sheesh!
I go in for a scan on Friday, cd15. The u/s I had on cd4 only showed 1 possible follie. Here's to hoping that one little one has grown.
2ez~ Big hugs. This is a frustrating, infuriating process for sure. I'm glad you're brave and strong enough to keep with it.
Went to bed at 8:30, fell asleep by 9, slept until kitty Iggy woke me at 5:30 (just in case I forget I'm supposed to feed him at 6. He'd hate for me to oversleep). Feel almost human today...
many hugs to you lise. :( i'm so sorry for your loss. :(
sounds like great timing escher!!! :) fingers crossed for you! :)
2ez - sounds like you need to have a serious chat with your RE. fwiw, for both our bfps we really did take control of our treatment. i see no reason why you can't tell your RE that you'd like to be more agressive. for dp we told our re we'd like to move to clomid for our third try and she agreed and voila! ds2 was the outcome of that. :D
afu, just waiting for dp's af to arrive - should be late this week or early next. then we'll bust out the thermometer again - lol, dp is NOT looking forward to temping again but she is nice enough to humour me. ;) it really won't be that long until our first consult in february!
escher ... sounds great! Egg, meet sperm. Do a little dance. Make a little baby. Ta da!
2ez ... Oh, how it is so not too easy, is it? My thoughts are with you. Such a rollercoaster, isn't it?
AFM: It was the flu. I feel fine today. Or else it was some funky side effect of all the hormones and the procedure. I don't know what to think. Time will tell. I certainly don't feel pregnant today. But I also don't feel not pregnant. As for waiting to test ... my resolves is certainly desolving, but I still plan to wait until Tuesday.
Hello to everyone else! We're off to the aquarium today as it's DP's day off. We're taking advantage of the fact that we're not doing any Christmas shopping and going to see fishies and sharks, and otters and all the other critters DD adores. We saw grey whales and otters and eagles on our trip to the hotsprings last months and DD still hasn't stopped talking about them!
Starling~ Glad you're feeling better, no one needs the crud, especially at this time of year. As for not feeling pregnant, I think it's the best way to feel during the 2ww. My experience was that any 'symptoms' I felt were always period symptoms, so nothing is really something. Your day off sounds delightful, I'm completely jealous! I love otters, they're SO CUTE!
Wehrli~ I second that emotion! I want all our wonderful ones to join us on Q & P, so I'm shaking a pom pom right beside you.
Indigo~ I'm also pressuring my dp to start temping, not because we're trying with her anytime soon, I'm just curious to see what her chart is like. She said she won't use my 'disgusting' thermometer, and I guess it has sat beside the bed getting covered in my germs every day for over a year, so I can't really blame her. Maybe Santa will put one in her stocking!
Escher~ GO SWIMMERS!!! I'm glad your body confirmed what your logic had already decided. This is it, I can just feel it!