first of all, huge hugs to you, val, (and to aubergine) for dealing with loss near the holidays. as for reading something, maybe writing something is too intense/personal for right now.... is there a poem that you and she shared and loved? i read a poem at my grandpa's service many years ago. if i'd been asked to say anything that was my own thoughts, i wouldnt have done it, but reciting something memorized that was someone else's words was comfortable..... just a thought. huge hugs! i wish i was more "feeling" in this area, and better able to offer sympathy. are you taking FEs? i was thinking mariposa lily. hugs. xoxoxooxoxoxo
thank you, ladies,for the kudos for my self-pride. it's the flowers. really! and maybe a bit a new tapping script (the one on personal wisdom, if any of you are on his list-- i recommend it highly! PM me if you didnt get it and want it). but really. it's the flowers. i am feeling the most amazing shifting. bit by bit, layers being peeled away.... but i feel like a flower blooming... one where the bud was slightly misshapen, and you werent sure it would bloom, and then it opens, and the flower is HUGE! and how did it possibly fit inside? and, wow! it smells amazing, you just never would have guessed...............................
bluets, you rock with recs, hon. we SO need to meet up sometime! i'll check out the NM conference, but NC in october is really calling "birthday present!" to me................. plus, like 4 of my favorite people ever live there (though one keeps trying to move......hugs, maia.)
btw-- what's "MRH"? i was leaning towards just buying a bottle, but of course, you know me, making it sounds too much fun!
i'm sorry you lost your rock! i have a RQ i've been wearing, and if i lost it, i think i'd cry for a day. :-(
re: anxiety... have you tried any of the kalis/etc like we were talking about before? or ... um.... flowers?? ;-) mimulus or aspen? i LURVE mimulus. i actually think it's been one of the most *powerful* flowers i've worked with so far... though i love them all. ;-) (i do have my theories about why it's so powerful for me, though.... having a bit to do with it coming from wales, my fave place on earth.....................)
maia, hon. i wish i was there. :-( sending you hugs and happy thoughts.
family letters/cards/photos/etc.... we do a photo card, but rather than pose the boy, i take six of my fave pics from the year and make a card from them. i too have thought of doing a letter this year. i've always felt "eh, no one wants to hear our dull stuff" but this was such a wild year, i'd thought maybe.... of course, now i'm feeling something slightly different... i LOVE the idea of the multiple choice letter! how'd that work-- was each option true? or was only one true? (i too missed the thread card exchange. boo. :-(
indigo, yay! i'm so happy to hear you so happy! i'm so glad you are loving school. yay, you!!!!! xoxoox (though i do miss hearing from you more often!)
FR, i've only spent time in mexico, but i think any of those ideas sound splendid. i have a couple friends who know S/CA fairly well (one used to live there. one moved there recently)... let me know if you want me to ask them anything! i think it's a splendidly adventurous idea, though of course, selfishly i want you to stay so i can come visit you. ;-)
cari, hugs on the leper van. :-( (ok, i am laughing at that, though.) btw-- speaking of chocolatey nummyness-- saw yesterday that yoda chocolate has drinking chocolate now......... danger!
clay, oh, hon. i hear you on not wanting to go. is there an alternative doc you can go to, since it's going to be out of pocket anyway? they tend to be better with offering "deals" and they wont order stupidly expensive tests that maybe you feel arent going to give real answers anyway...?? i dunno too much how you "feel" about all that foofier stuff, but i will just say that as a kid, i had lots of odd ailments, and the only doc who ever really helped me was a foofy doc. if i send you a bottle of FEs will you take them, and just see? i'm just wondering if you dont feel under it all that YOU can heal yourself, and maybe something's keeping you from listening. like with the local/vs/GF/etc debate you were expressing a while back.... i dunno. i wish i was there and we could talk over coffee. i have skype if you want to chat about it. and i seriously will send you a bottle of something for yule if you just but hint. (or you could always bribe me with beads.) hugs on the dental costs. un-reimbursed medical expenses will be tax write offs, though, right? surely this still counts?... not that it helps a ton, but we had $7k with ds's birth, and got it back over two years in tax refunds.
so i made my dried orange wreath yesterday, and i LURVE it! i realized (and you all will say "DUH") the little slices look just like little suns! so cute! i put it together without really thinking about meaning, and then saw i'd put on 11 slices (in a circle, around the wreath)... so of course, clay's voice popped in my head and said "hey! make that 12, silly!" how so totally wonderfully apt. :-)
which also got me thinking that while christmas ornaments are still out i am going to look for some dark gray/blue ones in the "drop" shape to use for SS "monsoon"/summer rain decorations.
BTW--- gasp! i did this all on MY computer! either the flicker is gone, or i dunno..... it seems to be better in the am (ds is still sleeping!) and in the bedroom. weird.
sending you all wonderful thoughts and happy vibes and sunshiney days (though it's overcast here today, of all the odd things......).