Date: Dec 06
Where are you in your cycle: Getting ready to try Clomid round 2
Symptoms if they apply: None
When are you thinking of testing: Not for a while
Thoughts: Just that I REALLY hope we're as ready as I felt when I went off my psych meds. Trying to remind myself that not only am I of course not going to feel as confident and prepared because of that, because of quitting smoking and because of hormonal stuff from not having a period and then provera and clomid making me crazy, but also because I just came baxk from my hometown, where most people have no faith in me because they know me as slutty and always high because that's just who I was when I lived there. None of these people have seen the state of my house, tasted my cooking, or been around me since I got clean (or well, at least more appropriate about the few things I still do sometimes, nothing hard and not to excess) and since I got married. Also, our one year anniversary is Sunday, so of course I'm taking stock of the last year. I feel much more ok about everything, the cautious ok I have to do when I know I could be manic, not the "EVERYTHING IS WONDERFUL" kind of ok that usually means I'm having an episode.
Appointments: lol yeah I screwed that one up. Have to call and re-schedule with my psychiatrist. I have a good reason though. Look at what yesterday looked like: http://i191.photobucket.com/albums/z203/lofnmusic/adventure.png
Any new regimes, ie herbs, medications, mantras etc: Might start using more mantras. They made me feel silly and insane, but they sure helped me drive through the mountains last night. Any reccomendations?
Do you have any stress triggers: It's just really nice to be home with my cats and husband, and to know he didn't let the place fall apart. he even vacuumed and picked up. Very proud. I am concerned about the litter box though, husband seems to have left the scoop IN the box, where the cats have to work around it to poop. We may have a talk. We also need to talk about him calling me when I spend ten days 8 hours away. He didn't call me once and I got PISSED. I think he knows he screwed up.
What is working to help you be stress-free this cycle: Not much more than positive thinking and spending time with Scott. We both do so much better when we're together.
Partners feelings if applicable: He seems repentant about not calling me and relieved that I didn't die (I almost veered into a semi the other day when my tire blew. Those drivers should be in jail right now for boxing me in like that, one to my right, two side by side in front of me, and none of them stopped when the tire blew and I wound up swerving all over the road at 80 MPH. Then I was stranded on the side of the road with a flat tired and a dead phone, next to a sign saying no picking up hitchhikers because there was a prison nearby). He almost drove all the way from Albuq NM to Pecos TX because he was so worried. Made me feel much more confident about his feelings toward me, after him not calling me drove me crazy all week.
Plans for this weekend: Once I get over this past weekend, I'll figure that out. I've never had a one year anniversary with anyone. Any advice?