Bitter Sushi Ladies, December Edition - Page 20

[jenger]

Hiya Ladies!

Congratulations Justthinkn - You have given me hope!  I, too have been at this 17 cycles! (And will start a new one, in all likelihood, with the new year.)

ScarletJane - I wanted to echo the others - you have every right to be bitter, sad and whatever other emotions you might feel when going through this TTC business.  And not conceiving easily after your daughters stillbirth - that is tough, girl.  Really, really tough.  :hug  

Originally Posted by rcr 
We are just coming out of the flu. No bd'ing for us, so I guess that means on to ivf or iui. I am actually looking forward to this but worried about missing work because of monitoring. All my classes are in the morning, and we don't get sick days. We just cancel classes which pisses students and their parents off and sometimes results in bad course evaluations (the semester before I go up for tenure - not good).

Off topic- I made ds a Waldorf doll for Xmas and got him an ergo baby doll carrier. It was the perfect gift. And- it is snowing in Alabama! DS is sleeping right now but if he is not up in an hour I am waking him up to go outside and play snow is a huge deal for southerners- it only happens once every three or four years).
 

rcr- I am so sorry you all were sick!   Can you go to appointments in the afternoon?  Do you have grad students that you can 'train'?  Independent research projects you can assign?

Great job on the gift!  I have always wanted to make a waldorf doll.  I made a bunch of wool felt stuff this year... I bet I could make a wool felt doll...

Originally Posted by BelovedK 

ETA, both stepdaughters are preggo, didn't make that clear

Oh Man, that is tough.  :hug

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Originally Posted by BelovedK 

rcr

Just go to 'My Profile'

Go to edit account details

scroll down to preferred text editor, it will probably be on Rich Text editor (which doesn't allow you to type in smilies.

Change it to BB code Editor.

You should be good to go, the smilies will show up to the right when you reply, and you can type in the words ex : lol for : hug for

This is a Question and Suggestion forum thing, but I thought I'd share.

Thanks, Lady!  I hope my :hug works! :lol
 

Originally Posted by enigo 

Beloved So far it hasn't happened that someone who was TTC when I started has had a second since then or announced another pregnancy.....but if anyone does.....Oh I cannot be held accountable for my actions! I know one of DH's sisters that has a 6 month old should be pregnant any second.

Hi enigo!  This HAS happened to me - both of my sisters-in-law (on my husbands side) were pregnant at the time we started trying - they were about 6 months along, but I wanted to have a couple of months where all of us were pregnant... Now, one of the SIL is due this Spring with another.  I am waiting for the announcement of the other one soon.  I am not looking forward to it... Though I will truly love my neices/nephew...such conflicted feelings...

AFM- 10dpo, I have increased my progesterone to 200mg twice a day.  Whoa. It feels fine, however - good even.  I am not too excited, as I never gor a positive opk.  (But I did get a peak reading on my monitor).  And besides that, I am getting an HSG next cycle... In a weird way, I am looking forward to that. (call me crazy!)

[miriam_bat_avraham]

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Edited by miriam_bat_avraham - 5/6/13 at 9:35pm

[enigo]

Originally Posted by miriam_bat_avraham 

Everyone else trapped in their homes by snow right now? It's a "winter wonderland" over here... luckily I have a proactive DH who filled the cars with gas and bought a bunch of groceries and firewood before the storm hit!

Nope not here . In fact we were at the beach yesterday! Winter is our payback for having to live here the rest of the year.

Covered all my bases by jumping DH wen he got home. Now I can properly obsess. We rarely BD on O day, because we're over it by the time it comes around. I am obviously at the optimistic stage in my cycle. Check with me at 10dpo. For some reason I know I'm not pregnant on that day. On 9dpo I amalways convinced I am pregnant, by 10...not so much

[rcr]

Jenger- they do have afternoon hours. I remember them preferring mornings for bloodwork before 10 am so they can get the results back the same day. I wonder if it is the same thing with ivf- a need for results the same same day. We are a graduate- only program, and are not allowed to have grad students teaching grad students, so that wont work. I will probably end up shuffling test dates around a bit and making them take-home tests (which they love) if I have to miss classes. Or really asking them about the need for same-day blood test results every time.

And yea, the Waldorf doll... wow, a much bigger project than I expected. It came about because I was trying to find an etsy seller to make one but add on a little penis, because DS likes dolls that look like him, and I got some really angry replies about how a penis would ruin the whole purpose of a Waldorf doll. Seriously, people were outraged at the idea. I was shocked. So, I bought a kit and made one myself (with a penis and balls), and it looks so perfect. I am really pleased with myself for making it, I am not that great at crafty stuff.

Ltb- you totally belong here. I like your posts (have I said that).

[Jane]

I'm in WTF land. 12 dpo. Stable temps, I'm one day late, for me. BFN. Like stark negative.

[musicoholic]

music-- I hate when DHs get sad they seem so helpless about the whole thing sometimes; it's mostly "up to" us, whatever that means. I'd love to come by your house and help you work your way through that liquor, though! Maybe DH needs a little time out of the house, you know, to relax and feel better, and we can all stop by. You're where, Australia? How far is that from Boston? Couple of hours, right?
 

Yay!!! So what time can I expect you??
I went to Chateau Barrosa, Chateau Dorrien, Jacob's Creek, Wolf Blass...... there were a few others, but these were my favourite Now I need to go out and buy a wine rack. And next time, instead of driving 900kms there and 900 back again (although it was definitely worth it!!).... I'll go to the winery area that's about half an hour drive away from me instead!!

So... now I'm sitting with a hot water bottle on my back to ease my cramps... which has made DH even more gloomy because I never cramp in my back with AF, so he's even more convinced that .... well..... sigh. I don't want to think about it. I'm planning my sushi/brie/wine day instead.
Edited by musicoholic - 12/27/10 at 5:02pm

[jenger]

Originally Posted by enigo 


Covered all my bases by jumping DH wen he got home. Now I can properly obsess. We rarely BD on O day, because we're over it by the time it comes around. I am obviously at the optimistic stage in my cycle. Check with me at 10dpo. For some reason I know I'm not pregnant on that day. On 9dpo I amalways convinced I am pregnant, by 10...not so much

Are you inside my head? Me too! Every time at 10dpo, I can tell I am not pregnant. Today is 10dpo and I am not pregnant.

Originally Posted by rcr 

Jenger- they do have afternoon hours. I remember them preferring mornings for bloodwork before 10 am so they can get the results back the same day. I wonder if it is the same thing with ivf- a need for results the same same day. We are a graduate- only program, and are not allowed to have grad students teaching grad students, so that wont work. I will probably end up shuffling test dates around a bit and making them take-home tests (which they love) if I have to miss classes. Or really asking them about the need for same-day blood test results every time.

And yea, the Waldorf doll... wow, a much bigger project than I expected. It came about because I was trying to find an etsy seller to make one but add on a little penis, because DS likes dolls that look like him, and I got some really angry replies about how a penis would ruin the whole purpose of a Waldorf doll. Seriously, people were outraged at the idea. I was shocked. So, I bought a kit and made one myself (with a penis and balls), and it looks so perfect. I am really pleased with myself for making it, I am not that great at crafty stuff.

Hmm, that's a quandary...(your teaching) I think the reactions you got are funny! (To your request for male parts on a doll) But some Waldorf people are really, really serious about leaving stuff to the child's imagination...

Originally Posted by Jane 

I'm in WTF land. 12 dpo. Stable temps, I'm one day late, for me. BFN. Like stark negative.

Do you usually get bfp's by 12dpo? Seems early to me... (But then again, I didn't get a bfp 'til 17dpo-ish the one and only time I was ever pregnant over 4 years ago...)

Uggh, I guess I should start thinking about when I can get to the city for my HSG...

[BelovedK]

Jane, keep testing, weren't you feeling nauseous the other day? I won't repeat others, but just wait a day and test again. I am pulling for you xoxo

[rcr]

jenger- yea, but when I have canceled class in the past, putting myself in the students shoes, I can't remember any time ever when a professor canceling class was a bad thing. I mean, ya they are paying for their full 15 weeks and not getting it. But come on, who doesn't like to skip a class every now and then (especially if it means I can have a baby). I am certainly not stressing about it much.

Come on jan 4th. My RE appointment. It is odd for me to actually be excited for an appointment with a doctor. I don't fully trust them.ever.

Yea, and keep testing. Not that Yu need to be told that.

[Kinza]

Originally Posted by rcr 

Kinza, fertilaid; pumpkin seed oil; flax oil, Maca , l-carnitine ‚ selinium, coenzyme q10, l-arginine, c, e, and b.

Yea, he seriously takes that many pills. He jokes that he can skip breakfast because there are so many.

Beloved, sorry Hon, that must be a really weird mix of emotions. I would send you a hug if I could find the damn hug smiley. Oh, that tree hugging smily is always right next to the reply space, so I'll just pretend it is a beloved tree

rcr: Thank you for the supplement list!

[scarletjane]

thanks, everyone, for your kind words. I'm feeling better. It's just really up and down. moments of peace and moments of darkness. that's life, i suppose. and without the darkness, i guess we'd never appreciate the light.

Jane, i just saw your post and am really eager for you to update us with any new news. keep us posted. i've got my fingers crossed for you.

sending my best to all of you.

[miriam_bat_avraham]

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Edited by miriam_bat_avraham - 5/6/13 at 9:34pm

[musicoholic]

Originally Posted by miriam_bat_avraham 


I'm knocking on the door right now! Haha, if only... I'd have to dig myself the rest of the way out of my driveway first... it's summer there, right? *sigh*

I hope you're feeling better, and DH too. Sometimes I think we have more stamina for emotional upset than they do. (Not always, because in that arena my DH far exceeds me when it counts...)

Hm... it's supposed to be summer.... I'm still wearing warm clothes and sitting under a blanket!! I don't know where summer went this year.... oh - we're supposed to get up to 37C on Friday.... but then back down to 21 on Sunday. That's not summer! Summer here is like... 42C. Don't get me wrong - I'm not complaining! After living in Bangkok for 3 years it's nice not to sweat All. The. Time.

Okay... so it's not as cold here as where you are.... but it's still just weird!

[LessTraveledBy]

Originally Posted by rcr 
 It came about because I was trying to find an etsy seller to make one but add on a little penis, because DS likes dolls that look like him, and I got some really angry replies about how a penis would ruin the whole purpose of a Waldorf doll. Seriously, people were outraged at the idea. I was shocked. 

LOL! Thank you for the laugh first thing this morning!

I understand where they are coming from in normally not making genitals. However, it seems really odd that no one would make them, when requested specifically! Getting upset about it is super strange and makes the Waldorfy groud look pretty bad, like it is a strict religion. It's like they are afraid that someone finds out such and such Etsy seller MAKES DOLLS WITH GENITALS.... OH THAT HORROR!! It is interesting that the dolls are often very clearly boys or girls, though, with long braids and all that. Anyway, glad that you found a solution. How special to have a doll your mother made...!

I'm in Northern Europe, so we have had snow for a couple of months now. Lots of it! It has been an unusual late fall and winter because it is not uncommon for us to not have snow that stays on the ground until after Christmas. The great thing here is that snow makes the super dark days seem a bit lighter. (I went to school in a city that had less than 4 hours of sunlight a day in the winter. Down here we get almost 6 hours, luckily.) HOwever, we are used to snow here, so nothing stops due to snow.

I feel a bit better today. The past 3 days I have been really "out" due to fever. I am still not feeling right. This is scary to me, because the way my head feels when I am sick is a lot like what it felt like before my hypothyroidism was treated. Now I am starting to wonder if I will ever feel normal again. (No reason to think I won't, but this reminds me so much of the suffering I went through.)

Edited by LessTraveledBy - 12/28/10 at 3:55am

[Jane]

It is not good news this morning. On the the next cycle and some femara.

[rcr]

Originally Posted by Jane 

It is not good news this morning. On the the next cycle and some femara.

Sorry. Did AF show up, or did you get another bfn?

ho hum, we didn't even try this month, so no tww obsessing for me. I guess I'll obsess about upcoming fertility treatments instead. Hmmm, IVF sounds really horrible. I am scared of monitoring, shots, hormones, decisions (especially about too many eggs, and how many to implant), drugs, 2-hour trips to the RE, missing work, getting pregnant with more than two babies. Just overall scariness. I am sure I'll get through it, but it sounds really daunting. Maybe I should join the IVF support thread.

[lavatea]

Wow, 3 days of not checking the thread and there was a lot to go through. Here's my best attempt - sorry if I miss anyone.
 

Originally Posted by scarletjane 

I feel like I grieve my daughter every single month that I am not pregnant.  I wish I could separate the two- the death of my baby and the inability to get pregnant again, but they are so intertwined that it is as if the grieving for her is getting harder and harder to manage.  For a while there, it had been getting.. maybe not easier, but at least less incapacitating, and now it feels like it's edging back towards that gut-wrenching grief i felt in the beginning.  I just want to enjoy things again. I want to feel excited about life, like there's something to be happy about each day.  This probably all sounds so terribly dramatic and tomorrow I will likely re-read this and find it difficult to remember how dark it felt today, but it does right now.. it just feels so so dark.  and so painfully empty.

I so feel you. It's weird how intertwined missing my babies and desperately wanting to be pregnant are.

Originally Posted by monkeyscience 

rcr - Sorry your holiday has been so crappy. ITA that there is nothing worse than a sick man! They are just like sick babies, but minus the cute factor. :P

I can't stand when DH gets sick.
 

Originally Posted by BelovedK 

rcr

Just go to 'My Profile'

Go to edit account details

scroll down to preferred text editor, it will probably be on Rich Text editor (which doesn't allow you to type in smilies.

Change it to BB code Editor.

You should be good to go, the smilies will show up to the right when you reply, and you can type in the words ex : lol for : hug for

This is a Question and Suggestion forum thing, but I thought I'd share.

Thanks! Going to try this as soon as I'm finished typing this post.

Originally Posted by enigo 

I know how you feel about "the race". There have been so many for me. Initially I was TTC with a friend of mine who has a daughter the same age as my son. We thought we could do it again the same way. Ha! I say! She got pregnant the first month...her cute little girl is 1 1/2 now. When I got pregnant and lost it three months later, it was a weird sort of race. (Must get pregnant fast so our kids will not be so far apart in age). Then I got pregnant at the same time sandwiched in between DH's two sisters. (Must get pregnant before they have their babies!) They have their babies now. I have to go visit them in a couple months while everyone fawns over their babies. (They are awfully cute).
Then I got pregnant at the same time as another good friend....lost that one too. She had her baby a couple weeks ago, mine was due last week.
Truthfully I have no one to race with now, everyone has had their baby, I am past all my previous due dates, and DS will be so much older than my next child that he will probably never give the baby the time of day.

My friend and I wanted to be pregnant together. Then I was hoping for 6 weeks apart. Now we're at about 10-12 weeks apart if I conceive this cycle and if I carry the baby to term. I wish I could just ignore pregnant friends, but I don't have many friends and especially not many that are into baby-making yet. So I can't cut them off. I need to just get over myself and the "race". Oh, another friend of mine just told me yesterday she's expecting. She's close to the point where I lost my first so that made me sick to think about. But I'm super happy for her. It's her first.

Originally Posted by rcr 

And yea, the Waldorf doll... wow, a much bigger project than I expected. It came about because I was trying to find an etsy seller to make one but add on a little penis, because DS likes dolls that look like him, and I got some really angry replies about how a penis would ruin the whole purpose of a Waldorf doll. Seriously, people were outraged at the idea. I was shocked. So, I bought a kit and made one myself (with a penis and balls), and it looks so perfect. I am really pleased with myself for making it, I am not that great at crafty stuff.
 

Ha, ha,ha! I love it. It's funny how silly people can be about stuff, and I love that you made him an anatomically correct boy doll! So awesome. :)

Originally Posted by Jane 

It is not good news this morning. On the the next cycle and some femara.

AFM - My grandfather much improved after my sis and I stayed with him. So they transferred him to the nursing home my grandmother is at back here in TX. They were going to take care of rehabilitating him there until he was strong enough to go home. Well, he spent two days there and was able to be with my grandma and then started having chest pains (a separate issue from what he was originally hospitalized) so they transferred him to the local hospital. They took him back for emergency bypass but he died on the table. All of this was Christmas Eve. So Christmas was a bit of a scramble but it all turned out ok in the end. His memorial service is set for Jan 15. He wanted to be cremated so they had time to push the service back so out of state relatives can come if they'd like.

On the TTC front I started OPKs this cycle. It's been fun trying to hide those in trash cans at relatives house. Finally got a positive yesterday. We got home last night but no BD (DH and I both fell asleep). But we got in some BD this morning so fingers crossed all goes well.

Thinking of you all.

[rcr]

Originally Posted by lavatea 

AFM - My grandfather much improved after my sis and I stayed with him. So they transferred him to the nursing home my grandmother is at back here in TX. They were going to take care of rehabilitating him there until he was strong enough to go home. Well, he spent two days there and was able to be with my grandma and then started having chest pains (a separate issue from what he was originally hospitalized) so they transferred him to the local hospital. They took him back for emergency bypass but he died on the table. All of this was Christmas Eve. So Christmas was a bit of a scramble but it all turned out ok in the end. His memorial service is set for Jan 15. He wanted to be cremated so they had time to push the service back so out of state relatives can come if they'd like.

On the TTC front I started OPKs this cycle. It's been fun trying to hide those in trash cans at relatives house. Finally got a positive yesterday. We got home last night but no BD (DH and I both fell asleep). But we got in some BD this morning so fingers crossed all goes well.

Thinking of you all.

Sorry for your loss. Hope your grandmother is ok. It must be hard to loos a spouse after being married to them for a long time
 

[miriam_bat_avraham]

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Edited by miriam_bat_avraham - 5/6/13 at 9:34pm

[musicoholic]

rcr:  I wish I was crafty like that!  The most creative I am is with a pen and a sheet of music manuscript....  

Jane:  

LTB:  Get well soon!  

lavatea:  I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather. 

MBA:  how exciting!!  

I came across some threads last night which made me roll my eyes and shake my head...  people joining DDCs even before af is due.  Hey, at least they're optimistic...  I guess...  Good on them.    I do envy their optimism.

CD3 here...  had my wine (didn't finish the bottle) and camembert last night (no brie - the camembert was on sale!  ).....  going to go out today for sushi for lunch.  I don't care if noone else wants it - I'm having sushi!!  We need a sushi smilie. 

Edited by musicoholic - 12/28/10 at 8:50pm