so my dh and i agreed that it seems like i might have PPD. ds2 is 3 months and i have definitely been super overwhelmed. i am also going to talk to my dr about this but i first have to find a dr so this is faster and i feel more comfortable talking to other mamas.
i dont necessarily feel depressed. i definitely havent been eating more, or less. i sleep great. like a rock, actually.
but i feel like im going crazy. and not regular mama-crazy. mentally ill kind of crazy.
an example: after a great day i made a big deal about my dh not wanting to light up our xmas tree (and he had a good reason, work related). even after the arguement was over, over and over in my head i was yelling, screaming, picturing myself throwing out the tree, imagining all the horrendous things i wanted to scream at him, etc. when he fell asleep later on, i couldnt think of anything but the tree. this stupid tree that i lite myself w'/ the boys. it really was no big deal, but at the time, i couldnt even focus on a tv show.
so i took off all the ornaments, and threw my 4 ft tree outside, lights and all. i then woke up dh, cried and cried about how much i loved my tree, to which he realized it was outside, he brought it back in, cleaned it up and was extremely concerned cuz i have never acted that way before. its almost as if there is another persone in my head instigating (sp?) these kind of things
that is just one example but lately i have been doing similar things. could this be PPD? or just me losing my mind?