Eksmom--
. I've been thinking about you.tjsmama--how did the Nutcracker go?
JayGee--I'm pretty sure I'd never do that willingly, especially with all the December birthdays in our family, but thanks for the advice.
I hope your week goes as smoothly as is possible under the circumstances.Penelope--did you run?
bec--hope the party went well. We're next. R's kid party will be Saturday and her family party will be Sunday.
I got out for 8 today. It was supposed to be 37 but it was overcast and felt a lot cooler when I was out there. At least it wasn't windy, just chilly. At any rate it's done--like the chocolate-chip pumpkin muffins I just pulled out of the oven.






No idea here, either, but we do have some barefoot runners lurking somewhere...
My run wasn't too bad, but we kind of froze taking the light rail downtown!
On the bright side, we got to the bathroom in time to beat the rush! He got a little antsy during the second half, but I could tell he was tired. He said he liked it, which since my kid isn't one to really gush over things, is a pretty good sign that he did, in fact like it.
that kid.





There must be a better way so that there is more calm and peace if not ease. I don't really know where to start but I would like to feel more in control and be more able to see the big picture or context. Does that make any sense?
Of course, I know there is a pile of hard copies on my desk waiting for edits, but...meh. I have an invite to meet my sister at the track again, which is good for my endurance. So I'm trying to decide how to do the day. Regardless, I know the evening will be spent with ds catching up on reading (he should be reading a couple hours tonight).
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I hope you find something bright and sparkle-y today. 

In normal marriages (what's normal?) I suppose this would be a good thing. But it is a sign of his intense, feverish, myopic determination to spend any amount of money, go to any length and inconvenience to do anything that will postpone making any change in his behavior. Even when the counselors point this out. Ironically, he will often "blow" money on counseling instead of just manning up and investing in the overhead of his family or in the management of his relationships. And not just with me. So I've canceled and moved all kinds of appointments, schedules, classes, etc. (Oh, I wonder why he has *nothing* to cancel or rearrange. Huh?) And we begin the same song and dance, take 364. What does that make me? Ironically, I feel almost amused when I think about it. I'll write in my journal. We'll do the dance. It always has the same outcome. I will resist "told you sos" and pointing out the waste of money and oh, why-can't-you-go-by-yourself argument. And he thinks b/c he went, we're good. My goodness. The lengths one will go to to avoid ch-ch-ch-ch-changes. Ugh. Over and out. Sorry for the leetle rant. I'll be fine. 'Cuz I know how to laugh. And where to buy a margarita.
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