hi all, i'm back after finishing an insanely busy semester and getting thru xmas with a nasty head-cold AND mega-nausea! nice to see what everyone's been up to, and so sad about tank.
last week when i hit 12 weeks exactly, we saw the little creature on ultrasound, and it's got all its parts. it was moving around like crazy-- so amazing!! i'm creeping into the second trimester, thank g*d! i have been nauseous EVERY SINGLE DAY (and night) for nearly 2 months and i am SOOO looking forward to having a real appetite and not feeling like i have the flu all the time. i'm busting out of all my pants-- got a pair of heidi klum leggings for $20 at motherhood mat. and i wear them almost every day--i think i might need to buy a couple more but i'm trying to resist all the crazy consumerism that goes along with north american pregnancy!! anyone workin' a bella band yet? i think i want to get one, but the problem with me is i'm one of those old punk rockers whose jeans are all "skinny" so i'm not sure it'll help me much as the hips and thighs expand with the belly... i'm thinking about "jeggings," but the word scares me! my fashion sensibilities might move from punk slightly toward hippie during pregnancy and early motherhood! comfort first!! 
re: cravings, it's mostly total AVERSIONS for me. i'm dreaming of eating a cheeseburger as soon as i get an appetite (and i'm mostly vegetarian, but i have not had animal protein in months and i feel the craving!) for now, i eat a ton of apples, potatoes, carrots, bagels, hummus, pickles, grapes, and oranges... oh and plain cheese pizza. but mostly just apples. lots of apples. i'm thinking with my fancy vitamins i'm going to be OK. had my first big salad last week and it was delicious, but when i recreated it the next day i could barely stomach it! salad is my favorite! i miss greens more than almost anything else!!
had first incident of majorly unwanted advice from mother-in-law (who is lovely but SO pushy) who insists on an OB hospital birth which enrages me. mostly because she insisted about 100x in a 2-day period. i'm trying to come up with creative and respectful ways to say I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS. my home birth pals warned me not to talk about it with people but SHEESH. i'm actually thinking i'm going to shoot for a birthing center in a hospital w a midwife -- the same place featured on the movie business of being born! my regular OB is great but she's part of the columbia univ. system which has highest c-section rate in NY and they don't have midwives... no thank you! and i live in student housing which strictly forbids home births. i'd ignore the rule except i used to work in the housing office! my mom had 2 (unnecessary, i believe) c-sections in the 70s and i'm just paranoid they're gonna try and cut me because i'm 36 and have fibromyalgia. but for those reasons i think i'd also be more comfortable in a birthing center in a hospital just in case i need anything... else. over winter break i'm going to read all the ina mae gaskin i can, do prenatal yoga, and swim! i really want a healthy, natural pregnancy and birth, and i pray that i won't need any major interventions!!
woo, sorry, that was long, i just haven't been on here in forever. wishing everyone a lovely new year!! 
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