Well, I finally had a little nausea this morning. Nothing earth-shattering or anything, but at least it's a symptom, right? Also, my boobs were a little sore for the first time when DS was nursing last night. I'm so relieved that I'm starting to have some symptoms at all. I am on pins & needles right now and I want to go have an u/s so bad just to know that my little bean is doing ok. I know it won't change anything though and I really don't want to ruin Christmas for my family if it's bad news.
DH is finally starting to acknowledge that I am pg. I think he's been in denial for a while because he never brings it up for any reason. I think he's afraid to get too attached in case we lose this one too. He's a real softy underneath his big tough guy image and even though he's never said it, I think he took our m/c pretty hard.
We haven't told any of our family yet. We don't want to tell them until we have the pregnancy confirmed with an u/s and it's going to be killer to get through Christmas without saying anything. I really don't want to go through all the misery of having to "un-tell" again though. Maybe I shouldn't think of it that way, but they weren't really any help at all while I was going through my dark days and I'd rather them just not know at all than expect some kind of support that they aren't capable of giving. On the other hand, it would be nice to have something to celebrate during all the holiday events. I wish I could get up the courage to be unconditionally excited and give in to the joys of pregnancy. This PAL stuff really sucks!