I have four little ones under six. The oldest goes to our neighborhood school, and the 4 year old goes half days twice weekly. I am home with my two year old and six month old sons, and I want to enjoy them so badly, but I just dread filling the long days. It's very hard for me to get out, and my husband works an odd shift (noon to 10pm), so I have long evenings. We have recently moved and have no family nearby. I am feeling down and lonely, jealous of my husband's quiet commute to work and his freedom (going for a run, playing tennis with a work pal). When I am home, I am surrounded by laundry and dishes and can't seem to get on top of things! I feel I need to get a break -- a feeling I never wanted to have -- and yet I can't imagine when I'd do that with a nursing baby, or what I would even want to do if given the time, particularly w/o a sister or dear friend nearby. It's hard to imagine I could feel lonely with all of these little ones around! We were homeschooling last year, and I felt like I had more purpose... now there is still much to do, but I feel like I am wandering.
Any tips for this difficult time? I had some baby blues after my second daughter was born, and I am beginning to feel as I did then, but I want to avoid medications, of course.