We are down to the last $18 of the year.  I wanted to have more to take over into the New Year, maybe even $100, but things didn't stretch out. However, We are enjoying the holiday spirit, making cookies and decorating them, decorated a Ginger Bread House, the girls loved this, and yes, I have both of my girls with me for Christmas for the first time in 5 years....which is accounting for most of my holiday cheer!
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We are dead broke, but we have each other. I'm praying to pull together the money to move on Jan 1, maybe with help. We not only need the deposit of $850, but the rent of $850mo. Our beautiful wooden table was destroyed (accidently) when we moved last, so we need a new table, (we have chairs), we need 2 twin beds (the girls are begging me to let them have their own beds (and we need sheets) and we need a washer and dryer, and possibly a fridge. It will be a miracle if we actually swing it, but we have to get out of my parents house. It's getting tough there, dad is sick and losing memory, and mom is having some serious inability to accept that dad is not functioning well. I've been helping, but mom doesn't want me to, so given that, I need to go. My kids miss being able to get messy or loud. I wish I knew of some resources to help us come up with the money for the deposit. The owner will let me pay it in two months. As soon as I move, I will be starting to care for two babies, so I can bring more income in. I'm looking forward to the change in our lives.
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Looking ahead to the new year, and Happy Solstice, Merry Christmas!