Let me preface this by saying that I don't really know what I'm asking for or saying, but I feel like I need to talk. I'm almost 36 weeks. I'm having this irrational.....OK, let's just call it "obsession" (lol) with the baby's position. This is my fourth pregnancy, and I have no idea why I'm so distracted by it this time. I've never had a breech baby, no posterior, all births have been lovely and uneventful. Yes, I've been to the SpinningBabies website (a hundred times) and still feel enormously inadequate at determining the position. Really, I get that the head should feel harder and the butt softer, but, honestly, it all feels like a bunch of random blob of parts in there. I've never felt like such a loser at visualization!
The thing is, I feel most of my kicks/jabs down in my lower, left side. Aren't we supposed to feel jabs up high, like, near the rib cage? Isn't that where the feet lie? And then I have myself convinced that the hard bump I feel at the top is the head (I mean, I know it could be the butt....how hard is the head comparatively speaking to the butt....I have no idea!) Can the feet be felt lower when the baby is head down -- is there a way they can put their legs like that?? Sometimes I feel a little ball stick out far on my left side directly even with my belly button. I thought maybe that's the feet, but shouldn't they be higher (I also have a long torso...I'm 5'10"...does that matter?)?
The midwife felt my belly this past Monday and said the baby is head down. But it was very non-chalant and such a brief feel. I also hadn't let her know that I was concerned about the positioning. I don't know why?! I don't know what's wrong with me -- lol. What I want her to do is to spend a good amount of time feeling around, showing me the parts, confirming things, etc. Maybe that's just what I need to express to her at our appointment next week, huh? I asked if she can tell at this point if the baby is at least posterior or anterior and she said, "No." Now, I'm not as concerned about posterior position as I am breech (I won't get my HB if baby is breech), but I'd still like baby to be in the optimal position -- know what I mean?
For those who have had a breech positioned baby, does it feel like something particular? Something distinguishable? Ugh. I don't know. Like I said, I guess I really just need to express myself to my midwife on Monday and have her talk me through it. I wonder if because I've had such uneventful births that I think my "luck" will run out. How silly is that?! This really is sooooo unlike me. I don't EVER concern myself with this sort of stuff. And then I think I have these feelings because I'm in tune with something and I don't want to disregard it. Help!
Sigh. I wish I had X-Ray eyes right now.
Thanks for listening!