I'll tell you - I sat here for the longest time thanking you all and telling you how amazing you are and wrote about nursing and hoping everyone keeps to feeling better and then and then and then it was gone.
I'm very pleased to have hit the minus-6-months mark (EDD June 21)! Hubby and I celebrated by announcing it on Facebook, where we've kept quiet (though everybody else already knows anyway). Though since pregnancies are dated at being 2 weeks longer than they actually are, I tried to calculate when I'll actually be 1/3 done with this thing and concluded it'll be probably circa this Saturday, but I guess it's close enough to celebrate now, especially since I think I'll probably go a little early anyway.
I guess we should eventually start accumulating baby stuff. Or maybe just make a list. I like lists.
There are moments of happiness but I'm largely indifferent. I know that I'll love the baby and have to come to the point where I can birth magnificently. I needed to know, I needed to bond to my baby but now realise no one can share in my happiness. I have to keep secret that inside of my womb is my DP's first and only son.
Congratulations on your boy! I totally understand how you feel. I am so ambivalent sometimes. My pregnancy was a surprise, really a total, total surprise. I love the LO sooo much but am also terrified. Everything in our lives is changing and it feels like a train that won't stop. I am scared to be a good enough mother. Worried about having enough money, and then worried about worrying :) When they are so tiny it's hard sometimes to bond with them, it's hard to feel like its real.
Thank you so much, everyone, for sharing and being honest. Pregnancy is beautiful but there are so many different feelings involved and we have to share them, good and bad.
ALSO ::: guacamole is the perfect food! A sweet friend just had her first baby, her LO put on a lb in the first two weeks : ) My friend thinks it's from all the avocados she eats.
Kawa Kamuri, I feel for you. When I was preg. with my first daughter I wanted to know the sex and DH adimantly said he didn't. When I had an appt. to find out the sex he stayed in the waiting room while my best friend went with me into the room. Unexpectedly while there something wasn't right and the tech got the dr. who told us nothing but for my friend to get my DH. She tried and he thought she was just trying to trick him into the room. I came out crying after they told me she had what appeared to be fluid on her brain and told him. He felt so bad because his stubborness got in the way of conforting me and being there for the moment of importance, that needless to say he goes with whatever now because he realized there are more important things than knowing the sex early. BTW, it ended up not being fluid but space. She has Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum. While still a brain birth defect, no where as severe as fluid. So feel free to share this story with him and maybe he will feel a bit differently about what is important and realize that accidentally/purposely finding out the gender is not the worst thing he could find out. So. BIG hugs and COBGRATS on your boy!!!!!
I hope you all had a peaceful and harmonious day yesterday! We got a couple things for the baby. My middle daughter got a very soft elephant/blanket combo lovey for baby and my sister gave me an alpaca filled crib size comforter for baby. We both have alpacas and sell the products and this was one of the things I loved that we carry!
I spent a lovely 4 hours in the ER yesterday Diagnosis= Nasty case of bronchitis and dehydration. Had me some IV fluids, tylenol, and reglan (to help me eat and drink and to help with my headache) and scripts for Azithromycin, Claritin, and Zofran (to help me eat still!)
Hopefully I'll feel better soon. I'm tired of the blahs...
In other slightly happy news, DH quit his job. Most people would be sad about the loss of income, but I'm just tired of never seeing one another and the house going to you know where because no one is ever home enough to get much done. Money wise we can make it on my check if we are really strict (plus this month is an *extra* check month AND tax return will be coming up really soon)