I'm so sorry to hear that! We've been through the same thing (almost twice). The birth mother changed her mind 3 days before her due date.Â
It's a loss that no one can understand unless they've been there. Allow yourself some grieving time - this is considered the same grieving as a late term miscarriage so don't allow anyone to tell you it's not a big deal!
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My only advice is to go take a vacation and try to get some downtime with your husband.
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Sending prayers your way!