My son is just over a year old. I have been home with him since birth. I love my son very much, but honestly, I am sick of being here constantly with him. Before I had my boy I had a nice job with decent earnings, lots of stimulation and exercise, etc. Now I feel like all I do is babysit and wash dishes. Dh and I have discussed in the past having more than one baby, but I honestly don't want to now that I know how hard it is. He is an involved dad, but I don't think really understands the demands of pregnancy, breastfeeding, and raising and infant on a 24/7 schedule.
We are both in our 30's, so time is not on our sides either.
While I think it would be wonderful for D to have a bro or sis, I'm afraid I'll really lose my marbles (had PPD for several months) and can't imagine how I would do two more years of this, including a wild man of a toddler to try and raise at the same time.
What I really want is a job, and for DS to go to daycare. I'm just not happy with myself, I'm bored, and I feel like dead weight. Dh just giggles and says "oh you'll feel differently when he is older" or "oh, you don't want him to be alone do you?". It irritates me that he is not taking me seriously on this. How can we come to a decision???