My cousin died a senseless death.

[Halfasianmomma]

On Monday night, in Paris, France, my little cousin V was on her way to get a well-deserved holiday massage. She had just returned to France from Spain, where she had been working and living, to support her mother as her father underwent aggressive treatment for inoperable prostate cancer. That night, she took the subway. When she got to her stop, she was randomly pushed by a thief who'd stolen someone's purse and was struggling to get away. She fell backwards down 8 steps and hit her head. She died of a cerebral hemorrage by the time she arrived at the hospital.

She was 25.

She was such a passionate, driven, unconventional Viet girl; she definitely didn't listen to her mother and lived her life exactly the way she wanted. She worked in fashion marketing.

I admired her nerve, her style, and her humour.

Though we hadn't seen each other in over a decade, we reconnected a few years back, sharing long emails about our lives. We chatted on FB regularly. I saw her on three days ago, thought about messaging her and then remembered I had little time, so I didn't. I so regret that now. 

Because V. died under violent circumstances, her body is being autopsied, and her family won't be able to hold the funeral until the body is released.

I'm struggling to find the sense in this death.

I feel pangs of extreme sadness, followed by periods of numbness, and then guilt for even feeling sad, because there are many other people who were deserve to grieve more than me.

Rest in peace my dearest V. I know you are in God's hands now. I will miss you so much.

[nicolian]

I'm so, so sorry for your and your family's loss.

[lynsage]

 So sorry this happened.

[hibana]

So very sorry.

[rainbow_mandala]

I'm so sorry   V. sounds like she was an amazing woman...my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

[ElliesMomma]

so sorry for this tragic loss. YOU very much deserve to grieve. and grieve.

[littlecityfarmer]

So very sorry for your family

[DariusMom]

Couldn't read and not post. i'm so very sorry. Condolences to you and your family.

[nadiaf]

Hello,

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I, too, lost a cousin the summer before last in a tragic accident that was highly publicized in the montreal media. While for everyone the news is now a distant memory, for me, and the rest of the family her loss is very much present in our hearts and minds. She was 33 when she passed away.

[MissSJ]

  Sorry for your loss.

[FelixMom]

I only just came across this now, and hope it's not too late to offer my sympathies. A life that was finished well before her prime. How is her family coping?

[nadiaf]

Thank you for your sympathies.

[AntoninBeGonin]

Huge hugs to you.  Never feel guilty about grieving.  Your cousin sounds like a really amazing person. 

[Lisa1970]

I am just so incredibly sorry!!! ((((hugs))))