One of the things I really want to make headway on this year is yelling less, and generally being less critical. My DH is the one who is on the receiving end the most, but I feel like my yelling is affecting my DDs as well as my DH. He's an amazing man, a very committed and involved father, and really a very good husband. I'm generally happy in my marriage. We have issues, of course. DH tends to be passive aggressive, and I tend to explode and yell. I can be controlling, and he'd rather leave all household management and decisions to me (for example, he'll do housework, but wants me to tell him what needs to get done and when). The issues feed on each other.
I don't think we need counselling. We're honestly in a pretty good place right now. Those issues have ebbed and flowed for the 16 years we've been together. They aren't at a crisis point at all. In fact, I think they're likely less of an issue than they often have been. I'm just seeing them more clearly right now. I imagine the underlying personality issues will always be there. We've done counselling before, and I'd be open to doing it again if I felt we needed it. I also did counselling myself in early 2010, and would do it again if I felt I needed it. I made MAJOR headway in many areas in 2010. I'm trying to keep up the momentum.
I've worked hard on pulling myself out of PPD. I hadn't realized how deep I was or how long I'd been there. I've seriously cut back my screen time, including going TV free. I've started taking time away from the kids on my own. I've started exercising. I fired my housekeepers, and started doing the large bulk of housework myself. I know that getting myself in a better place helps minimize my losing it.
So, I'm looking for a tangible, achievable goal about not yelling. A baby step. Any suggestions?