Oh, no, Nemesis. That's awful. Sending out good vibes and prayers up for the best possible outcome.
JayGee and Jooj, Hugs on the life transition stress and carb-loading. I revert to standing up eating bread with butter smeared on it in times of great stress. It's like I can't digest anything else. Not great for the mood (I have difficulty with refined flours) or the waistline. Sigh.
My latest food obsession is buying chunks of brie and colby/jack at the grocery along with this delicious raspberry walnut spread and eating large amounts of that for meals. Sometimes with crackers, sometimes not. Sometimes I add a salad for a nod at health and variety but not always. that and mainlining clementines. Have I mentioned I have weird food tangents? In this it seems I take after my mom who has been known to eat the same exact food (or combination) for years for a certain meal and then never eat it again. She had a two year sweet potato-for-dinner period, a five year two-plain-bagels for lunch period, a several year 2-hardboiled-eggs-and-a-pear for breakfast period, and now is just coming off a several year 1-slice-of-lowfat-swiss-cheese-on-light-wheat-bread for breakfast/lunch period. Her new tangent is those cranberry and almond chewy granola bars and babybel cheeses.
Yes, I have residual body image and food issues.
I have to say, although I do have these odd tangents, the more I run, the better a relationship I have with food in general. Not that I always make the best choices, but I tend to choose a little better overall and not freak out over the bad choices quite as intensely. Unless it's that time of the month of course.
But the food issues never quite go away. I always have that little kid inside whom the gym teacher called 'fat butt' (and I wasn't fat but I was a little pudgy and uncoordinated) and I've never been 'svelte'. I am trying so very, very hard to not make my dds have those issues (the oldest is shaped exactly like me, so it's more of a salient thing especially now as she is entering the pre-pubescent phase at 10; my 7 year old is a real ectomorph like her daddy -- thin and coordinated).
Searcher, I agree with you on the middle school thing. They are so on the cusp of turning into human beings. Some days you see wonderful glimmers of it, and other days -- not so much. They are still so needy like toddlers in so many ways but chafe at anything they see as confining. Since our school is a Montessori and they have a fair amount of freedom (within boundaries), the result is that some kids can really handle it and shine but others really can't and it makes it much more difficult for them (and us) to manage. Lately the drama level has been ratcheted way up and I think this is also related to the fact that the 8th graders (most of whom have been here since they were 3 or 4) have suddenly realized that in five months they will be released from their safe cocoon into very big, very overwhelming public high schools (this is a public charter Montessori and most of our kids go on to the mainstream huge public high schools here, although a small number go to smaller charter high schools).
Right now they are doing a unit on advertising (we are studying the period after the industrial revolution, so this marking period we are doing a unit on the industrialization of food -- we are watching Food, Inc., reading Chew On This --the kids' version of Fast Food Nation--, designing and writing ad storyboards, studying the different aspects of the advertising industry, working out the statistics of demographic targeting, and they will make their own commercials) and some of them are not happy reading Chew on This as they exist primarily on fast food. It's pretty amusing to watch actually.
I am starting a Couch to 5K 'special' next quarter. So cool! It will be an alternative phys-ed class and I'll have a group of kids and we'll follow the program, and culminate in a 5K race (hope I can find one). Neat, right? I hope so.
No RR for me today...taper, taper. 4 days and counting to the marathon!