po7, congrats to your dh, and to you on continued progress! Here's to health in your household, mama.
Nick, noooooooo! (How I feel about the pukies.) I hope it's a 24-hour thing that disappears and leaves no trace and barely a memory.
Gaye, I hope things with the ILs go smoothly. You're an incredible sport with them, you know. Hoping ds was just tired past his limit.
Plady, hug your dh for me. That is truly a sweet sentiment and I feel just a liiiittle bit understood. You might not have told him there are 14 of them, and 12 are most likely expecting, right?
Jennie, any speed you can send, I will take. I am actually a little thankful that dd's strep is keeping me home, because I am just useless at work. I can still turn a phrase, but I have no focus. A CD sent me a one-page part of a presentation to troubleshoot and that was fine, but beyond fixing a few lines, I am no good. I need to get back to today and here and now and just let whatever happens, happen. I am being ridiculous. And I truly appreciate the thoughts and prayers and energy of my Dingos, and the fact that somehow you all can humor me through my insanity. Dh is now slated for a work trip to Europe next month, which has me and again about lambing (I mentioned he's never been home for a whole lambing season, right? He caught a couple lambs last year and that's been it for him, and it breaks his heart) and of course has me thinking paranoid thoughts about the new post. Ugh.
So, just for a second, not making this about whether I have to get rid of nearly everything we own, give up guardianship of the animals and navigate an around-the-world move...and not making this about dh's amazing, hard work in a really tough, sometimes hostile environment...I think it really is time for me to rethink my arrangement. Again. For the 4th time in 4 years. I know. Whether we're leaving or staying, it is not a sustainable arrangement. It's unfair to me and the kids, and probably unfair to dh in ways not immediately tangible. I have to work so hard not to drown in it, and that effort in itself is draining. So, one way or another, by end of school year, I am putting an end to it. As much as I love getting a paycheck, and as hard as it is to get by without a second income, we'll be better off with me home than working. Don't know how I'll make it happen, but it's better for everyone, I'm sure.
Today's plan: I have 2 projects to finish that really, really need to be done. So dd can watch movies nonstop and I will work on writing, breaking to plow the driveway and do barn chores. Tonight, we are supposed to do dance and yoga. My teacher wants to bump me into a more challenging class with another high-stress runner mama.