i had some contractions last nite! of course everything stopped as the sun came up, but still. good sign.
the whole house mess is pissing me off. the main insurance guy in IL wants me to resend the gas bills/stubs because one was wrinkled. he says the most important info was on the wrinkled part. NO IT ISN'T! that is the part that tells me we have 30 days to pay, the most important info is fine and he can read it. UGH! i swear to all the gods i am about to freaking go nuts. either we had enough oil (in their opinion) or we didn't. just make up your mind. then the guy who went to the maine house told the clean up people to just keep working. LOL not your job buddy. until we have an ok your gonna pay. the clean up guy called and told me that. he is so good. i told him as of right now he needs to stop because we can't pay anymore at this point. we also decided to ask the bank (if this is all covered) to pay the heating oil bill while the house is being repaired, if they say no, then we are going to try and get a deed in lieu of foreclosure. so we will see. dh has been so sweet. last night he said "this is all nothing, we will get thru this and be ok" which is big for him, our credit score is getting totally trashed and we may not be able to buy a car or a house for at least 7 years after this, which most of the time i am like who cares about the darn number and dh is all crazy about it. makes me feel better.
i have been having alot of guilt about the whole move to maine thing. we moved because i was having a major fit due to PPD. i threatened to leave dh, take the kids and do it without him. so he came along, and we tired to make something from that. i could just kick myself, who makes a major life choice like that while in the middle of a major depression? he was so sweet to go a long, and still stand by me as the whole freakin' thing falls a part. i am not sure i would be as strong as him. he really is a good guy. i have been trying to to get all crying about it, i feel so bad for screwing up this big.
Hoping the baby makes an appearance soon:) mama, PPD, been there and the guilt after is terrible too. It's not easy but don't blame yourself. Think of all the good times ahead with your wonderful family.
Ye gods, I'm so darn (really wanted to cuss) sick of winter. This year has been awful. So awful, that people are talking about the apocalypse (ok, that part is funny.) I just want to cry that we are getting another 18" Wedn night/Thursday. And what the heck is up with the -23 degrees in New England?!
This morning at drop off, it was 10 degrees. I felt thankful for that. Crazy. Yet, it's snowing again today.
I want to move south.
You and me both. Today, right now it is not too bad here. Snow coming today but I don't think the temps are going to be too bad. South is where I am headed in a few years when my kids are out of college.
Oh Val, .
Birthday parties/parties around here when you send out an invite everyone in that family who can attend does, but the kids we invite we know their family. Gift bags, we don't do here. I would just let them know if they attend there might not be a gift bag for the sib.