Hi ladies.I've been away from the thread a bit.Had a tough few days. Very sad about the miscarriage, kept thinking I should be 14 weeks now. And then had high post O temps and got my hopes up( AF came yesterday). Then during a couple of days of heavy grieving and talking to DH he told me he didn't want to ttc again. I was devastated, but not surprised.
However, the the day after he said he would have another child if it meant I wouldn't be devastated. It's difficult because I have a compelling feeling that we really are meant to have one last child.I can't seem to shake this feeling - that our little one is waiting to come in.So it is hard to let go of something that feels this way.
Now I worry that if we do go ahead he'll be the one feeling something isn't right. I feel I'm between a rock and a hard place, but as DH said, it is more likely that he'll adapt and be happy than I will be.
So it looks like we'll be ttc.
Hopefully it will only be this month ttc, because the intuitive said Feb for a pregnancy. Boy, I hope she is right!
Sorry this post is all about me. I really need to review all the other posts since I was last here!
I've been reading Stories of the unborn Soul by Elisabeth Hallett(see it here:http://www.amazon.com/Stories-Unborn-Soul-Pre-Birth-Communication/dp/0595223613)
It is a lovely book and it makes me hopeful about the feelings I've had.
It suggests you make a little baby alter to show the soul you'd like to welcome them. So I'm going to do that. You can put together a special place with pictures of each of the parents as babies, fertility symbols and amulets, baby booties,shells,stones,crystals, flowers or a plant. It will be my mission to do it next week when all the family is back at school.
Of course I'm doing all the other stuff too : supplements etc. I saw a naturopath last week and she was concerned that my LP of 12 days is "borderline", but I really think it is long enough and I don't think that it contributed to my miscarriage at all. She talked about putting me on Vitex, but I don't think I need it. I ovulate on my own, have a good temp rise and a decent LP (in my opinion).
I've weaned my DS last weekend and it is going so well.I'm glad I did it, I was very apprehensive and worried, but it has actually been quite easy. At least now I feel I'm giving ttc my best shot.
Welcome Annie Mac. I love B.C. I'm Australian but had the pleasure of living in your neck of the woods for a couple of years.It really is a beautiful place.
Karalina, I love your hearts on the calendar! Your DH must be feeling very blessed! I tend to keep quiet about ovulation with my DH, otherwise he thinks I only want to BD for ttc and I'd rather he just felt I'm crazy for him and can't resist!