I was laying low a bit trying to minimize my obsessing. I am 12 dpo also. I noticed we were cycle buddies earlier, LitMama. I'm very drug conservative, but I'd lean towards taking the antibiotics, because infection means heat and heat isn't good, I'm thinking, but no expert. What does your intuition say? I don't know about late implantation, but I hope it is happening in a super healthy way in you. Is it possible you have your O date a bit early?
Congratulations and welcome back Purplefish and Moona. I love that you had a triplets dream, Purplefish!!! Sending lots of good wishes for sticky babies. Moona, I'm also curious if you attribute this to anything other than time.
Beachlover, I'm thinking about you and wishing you well. I agree that you can't compare different brands of HPTs. I also avoid comparing tests closer than 2 days apart.
My pg symptoms have gotten less and less. I am expecting AF in a couple days now. I am sad about it. I got so optimistic. The night before dh and I bd what would have been conception, ds mentioned that he heard that a certain word could be a boy's name. I have long had fantasies of wanting a dd and have struggled to be truly open and receptive of a ds2. Somehow when ds said that name I could easily picture us having a ds2 by that name and him fitting beautifully into our family and being such a dear little soul. It was easy for me to make up the story that now that I finally welcomed a boy we would conceive and it could even be either gender--and I'd truly be thrilled. I have a long history of making up these nice "it's fate" stories and being disappointed. Somehow in all of it, my excitement about adoption really diminished. Somehow I'm guessing after AF comes and goes I'll have some new perspective. I hope I'll have some clarity that I like.
I noticed that one morning, I believe it was Friday, after ds did his brief morning nursing, I felt a lot less pg. I haven't nursed him for 3 days. I have distracted him in various ways, which is easier on the weekend. I'm finding myself wondering if, in my case, stopping the nursing would help. He is plenty old to stop--but child-led weaning has resonated for me. Not sure what to do with that, but just wanted to mention it.