Winter IVF Thread - Come and join in on the Journey!!!! - Page 8

[rcr]

Has anybody experienced mild period-like cramping and spotting and sore breasts while on bcp? I have those symptoms, which from what I remember are Norman bcp things, but I am wondering if it means I am not being suppressed enough.

[songtothemoon]

Sarah - Oh, no! I am so sorry for the loss of your bean(s). I wish you and your DH love, light, and healing during this difficult time. Big HUGS to you.

[Silverbird]

sarahcecile I'm so sorry for you!  Hoping things work out well for you and your family.  Go give you miricel child a hug.

If anyone likes meditations I recomend meditations for pregancy

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Meditations-Your-Pregnancy-Conception-Beyond/dp/1903258049/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1295386365&sr=8-2-spell

It has a whole chapter on conception mediatations including ones for fertility treatment and when you worry you will never get pregnant.

[rcr]

Hi. I woke up to more bleeding. This time not just spotting, it was more like a period. I am waiting for a call back from the RE. I hope this doesn't screw everything up. I just totally re-arranged my class schedules so that I could be gone for retrieval and putting them back in. Ugh. I hope this does not set my schedule back.

[missme]

The nurse at my info session said that you might have a period while you're on the BCP - I'm not sure why... but she said not to worry. Obviously, you should still ask your doctor! but it might not be a problem!

[blueyezz4]

rcr - How frustrating!!!  I sure hope you get some answers soon and I also hope that missme is right and it is just a fluke.  Keep us posted.  Fingers crossed for you that you don't have to change your schedule again.  What a headache! 

[Kewpie80]

rcr- How frustrating!  I hope this doesn't mess up your schedule too. 

Well, I talked to my RE last night and he said that we can start on a new cycle as soon as we feel we are ready.  DH and I discussed it last night and we both feel that we are ready to get started right away.  I was afraid of feeling like we were forgetting/replacing our lost baby, but DH reminded me that our baby loved us and would want us to have our family and as long as we never forgot the baby, it would never be like replacing them.  We are putting together a shadow box of all the things from this lost pregnancy and we got a flowering plant to memorialize the baby.  

I called this morning and made the appt for the end of the month to meet with the RE and discuss our plan for moving forward.  This will be another fresh cycle since we had no embies to freeze.  So, we should be at the point of transfer sometime around the end of february or so...

[Keria]

Oh kewpie so sorry for your loss I can't believe it, so unfair

[rcr]

Kewpie - Sorry again for your loss. That makes me so sad. After my recent m/c (not IVF), I was even more determined to get pregnant for some reason. I didn't feel l was replacing the baby either, I really can't explain my feelings, but I had a strong feeling to try again right away, so I just went with it. I would just go with your feelings, I am sure they can't be wrong.

missme - I haven't heard back from the RE yet (they usually return calls in the afternoon), but I did reed on dr.google on several places that bleeding during bcp was normal. Strange though, I was on bcp for almost all of my 20s, and some of my early 30s, and I don't remember this kind of bleeding taking place. I don't know why it would be different now, other than I am only on them for a short period of time (two weeks now). Anyway, thanks for your reply, it makes me feel a bit better.

[blueyezz4]

Kewpie - I'm so sorry you've had to go through all this... so not fair!  Know I am totally rooting for you!!  I am glad to hear that you have a plan in order.  I know with me, and I know i didn't get nearly as far as you did, but I just feel like I want to jump back in head first.  I keep saying, that DH and I aren't getting any younger too.  Also, I was told after our first loss that sometime it is better to try sooner (as soon as the Drs allow) than later b/c your body was just pregnant and knows that so it makes it easier to get pregnant again.  Our High risk Dr told us that after we lost our boys so who knows.  Not that it worked for us that time, but I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that it might this time.  Keep us posted.

rcr - did you finally hear anything back from you RE about the bleeding????? 

[rcr]

Blue - Yea, they called back yesterday afternoon and said that a little bleeding and spotting during BCP was normal, and to call back if I get my period. the bleeding stopped, so I guess I am not worried.

[Kewpie80]

rcr- Oh, thank goodness!

Blue- I was wondering if it would make it harder or easier.  I'm glad to know it will make it easier.  I have really good feelings about this next cycle.  I will definitely keep you all posted.  How are things going with you?  I haven't caught up completely yet, but I remember things were going slowly for you for a while.  I hope it has resolved!!

[BellyBean]

Sarah - I am so so sorry to hear about your beta.  Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. 

Kewpie - Your post made me cry.  Sounds like you and your DH are very strong and supportive for eachother.  Trust your feelings.  I know everyone here will be cheering for you next month!

[missme]

rcr - good news!

kewpie - I'm hopeful for you for this cycle! Your heart tells you if it's the right the time, and the fact that you and DH are on the same page about trying again as soon as possible is good, too. And he's so right - your little one in heaven would want to see you happy.

[BellyBean]

Sorry I have been a little MIA lately.  Just trying to get in the right place (mentally) for this next cycle.

I had my RE appointment this morning and we set up the schedule and I started with the meds.  The plan is a follow up ultrasound in 2 weeks and then transfering the following week 2/10.  I am not sure if he was trying to manage expectations, but he reiterated several times that statistically FET is less likely to work.  At this point we are planning on transfering two day 5 blasts.  I know I need to try to stay positive, but I am pretty down right now.

[songtothemoon]

rcr - good to hear that bleeding is normal on BCPs. Soon you'll be onto the next step.

bellybean - glad to hear that you have a plan in place. I know what you mean both about managing expectations and feeling down. Our RE didn't give us good stats for our upcoming cycle either--it's tough to keep your chin up. Remember, though, you've got two lovely day 5 blasts just waiting be transferred! Sending you positive vibes and .

kewpie - good that you are on track for another fresh cycle. Sending you and your DH lots of positive vibes. Here's hoping there are lots of February IVF miracles on this thread!

keria - how are you doing?

Warning: Venting Below! I'm feeling like a combo ofand 

AFM - I'm having a tough day today. Maybe it's the lupron, maybe AF is coming, I don't know. I finished the BCPs on Tues.--they made me nauseous and moody and the lupron didn't help. I had to teach lots and lots of teens w/special needs yesterday afternoon/evening and was definitely on a short fuse, kwim? I even had a terse email exchange with a program director (good thing I wasn't talking w/her!). Lupron really makes me feel edgy and kind of aggressive and cranky. Argh!

Also, I am feeling down today about the baby we lost who would be almost a year old right now. It sucks that we got preggo on the first month of trying, a few months after getting married, then m/c'd. I just feel like we didn't get our happy ending. I feel angry at all the women (esp. 1 friend and 1 cousin of mine) who got preggo at the same age I did, on the first try, and have happy, healthy babies now. I feel jealous of the women who get pregnant (and stay pregnant) with ease and don't have to inject themselves and get a zillion ultrasounds and bloodwork and pay tons of $$$ and have all this stress. It is unfair. It also sucks that the whole first two years DH and I have been married have been consumed with getting/staying/trying to get pregnant. 

I'm not one to hold a pity party. I'm just feeling down today. With luck, AF will come in the next day or so, then I'll start stims. I am also feeling anxious as to whether we'll get any viable embryos this time. I'm confident about having lots of eggs/embryos, just not about the quality. If it doesn't work this time, then we have to start down the donor egg path, and that makes me feel even more depressed. I can handle doing the donor egg thing--it is just more time, more stress, more money.

I love my DH so much and just want to start a family with him. We have everything else: loving families (I love my in-laws), a nice home, good jobs, great friends, lots of interests/hobbies/passions, fun together, sweet animals. We have it all--except a family of our own. If I were 10 years younger, I wouldn't feel so anxious. Having turned 40 last summer though, makes me feel even more under the gun to have our family. I wish we'd married sooner, started sooner. We met just before I turned 35. Together 2 years, then engaged, then 1 year to plan the wedding...and here we are. 

I am grateful for all that we have. I just want a baby. 

OK. Done venting.

[MOMTOALEXIS]

Song- Just wanted to send you lots of                                

[songtothemoon]

MOMTOALEXIS - Thank you so very much--I needed those hugs and support!!!

Congrats on your twins--what beautiful names!!! I've been holding your experience (2 times IVF w/out good embies, right?) in my mind to help me keep the faith.

[blueyezz4]

You guys are all making me sad!!!  We need to pull together and get more positive here!! 

Song - I think what you are feeling is totally normal especially with Lupron in your system.  I remember in the beginning I was emotional too!  I know it is easier said then done, but try to keep as positive as possible for your future embies!! 

Bellybean - Lots of hugging going on tonight here!!!  So you started meds today?  What are you on right now???

[primipara]

Songtothemoon--

I know *exactly* how you feel.

I've been TTC for 2 years in March. In the past year 3 of my very good friends have become pregnant like *immediately* after trying--one before the wedding, one on the honeymoon, one "oops, we just threw the condoms away last month". I want to be mommies with them!!

It DOES suck and it IS unfair. There is no reason we should have to go through all of this.  It doesn't make any sense.

But I try to be grateful for what we have, and the perspective this experience will give us--the chance to grow in dimensions of compassion. I truly believe we can learn from everything that happens to us in life. Your life sounds wonderful, and i am very grateful for my health (other than this) my wonderful husband, fascinating work, travel, loving family and friends, in a way that I would never be without this time of disappointment.

*Name: Anya
*Age: 30

*Location: Brooklyn
*TTC #: 1
*Trying Since: March 2009

*Things you have done to get a BFP (IUI, IVF, FET, diet, acupuncture, stood on your head, etc): Standing on my head (I do that anyway), acupuncture, IVF (interrupted), FET(currently), vitamins, exercise & yoga, meditation/guided imagery

*In a perfect world (ie: no infertility) how many children would you like to have? I'd be happy with 1 or maybe 2
*Plan for this Cycle: I am waiting not so patiently for our first and hopefully last FET
*Testing (Are you one to POAS early or no): I've never had occasion to POAS.

*If you have a choice how many embies are you thinking of putting back in? If I have a choice we'll do 1.
*DPO or Transfer (if applicable): Don't know yet!
*Link to Chart (if applicable):

*Where did you meet your DH/DP??? We met at an off-campus party my sophomore year of college; he was an alum

*Years you've been together? 12 years in November/5 years married

*Favorite vacation spot you've ever been? hmm...Hawaii, Venice, Kerala, Goa, Thailand on our honeymoon

*Do you have any pets? (kind/age) A cat named Boo

*Are you a beach, country or city person? Live in the city, love the beach

*What do you like to do in your free time? Read, cook, have dinner parties, yoga, massage, dancing

*What is your favorite kind of food? Thai & anything chocolate!

*Thoughts: my mood fluctuates...the hardest thing for me is not having control. as soon as I know what the plan is I'll be ok. I'm basically an optimistic person and can pull myself back on track but I also need to withdraw and cry at times.