Originally Posted by primipara
But I try to be grateful for what we have, and the perspective this experience will give us--the chance to grow in dimensions of compassion. I truly believe we can learn from everything that happens to us in life. Your life sounds wonderful, and i am very grateful for my health (other than this) my wonderful husband, fascinating work, travel, loving family and friends, in a way that I would never be without this time of disappointment.
primipara - Thank you for your support and your eloquent words. I also believe in coming from a place of gratitude on a daily basis and from learning from life's twists and turns. This is allowing DH and I to grow as a couple and for us each to learn and grow from this experience.
Blue - Hope AF comes for real very soon! Yes, the Lupron has been kicking my butt, more so, I think, now that I'm off the BCPs. I am feeling much more positive now. I gotta say, though, that I do not feel quite like myself on Lupron.
Kewpie - "If I had been able to get (and stay) pregnant right off the bat, I may not appreciate and have quite as strong of a bond with my future children." Yes, yes, yes!
rcr - Thanks for your support and encouragement! As for the BCPs, my RE said that it could take between 3-7 days to get my period after finishing BCPs (but still on Lupron). On day two of my period, I go in for bloodwork and ultrasound and begin stims. That's what we did last cycle--but didn't take BCPs, just Lupron. Also, great that you had chromosomal analysis done on your m/c and that there were no problems.
ratgrl - Congrats on being 18 weeks!!!!! Glad you stopped by. I don't blame you for taking things slowly w/your pregnancy and not feeling part of your DDC. Please let us know how your level 2 scan goes, ok? We are here for you! Thank you for your wise words. I do have a bit of that feeling of "missing our window," but I know things will work out.
bellybean - I'm inclined to agree with ratgrl and on the thawing. Once they've thawed, I think the chances are pretty similar. If anything, a successful thaw means the embryos are hearty and robust.
Question for all of you - Has anyone heard of/considered taking Saizen (Human Growth Hormone) while on stims?
I think we're going to try it. I mentioned it to my RE; he said it is coming back into vogue. Apparently, it helps embryos to mature. Our embryos matured well, but all 11 had chromosomal issues. However, I read up on it, and it can also help eggs to mature w/higher quality and embryos to mature w/higher quality--helps with the cell division (cleaving of cells), etc. If you've had a loss due to chromosomes (or suspected), it might be worth looking into...here's a link:
AFM - Doing much better emotionally! Thank you EVERYONE for your cyber-support and hugs. I don't have many people IRL I talk to about all this stuff, and I try to limit how much DH and I talk about it so we don't wear each other out, kwim?
On the physical side, I got a bad headache last night and still have it somewhat today. I think it is from the Lupron, though it came on quickly last night after a lot of sushi. I am also sneezing a lot today, so it may just be allergies--argh! But my spirits are good.
Also, when I vented, I forgot to mention that my SIL (well, fiancee-in-law) just gave birth via c-section a few days ago, so that was definitely affecting my spirits, DH's, too. However, I should only be happy for her because she had to do IVF w/ donor eggs and had been trying for 3-4 years.
Two funny things:
One--check out the site: www.999reasonstolaugh.com for reasons to laugh (instead of cry) at infertility. Very funny. The comments sections are good, too, because people share their personal experiences. It made me feel better about my reactions to day-to-day stuff, family reactions, etc.
Two-Last night after sushi, DH and I went to Petco. While in Petco, I got my bad headache and went to sit in the car, parked right in front of the store. DH and I live in Los Angeles, so celebrity sightings do happen. Anyway, I'm sitting in the car and can see people checking out at the registers up front. There is this tall man with long hair in a bright purple shirt. He tosses his head and flips his hair about. I think to myself--he looks familiar...who is that?
It was FABIO! My DH came out first (Fabio must've been behind DH in line). DH hadn't noticed him. So, we're sitting in the car, just looking at FABIO through the front windows of Petco. I tried to take a photo of him when he came out of the store, but only got the back of his head.
DH and I thought--well, it could be him, but it could just be some guy w/long hair...
Cut to today. I had a meeting with a creative partner of mine. I mentioned possibly seeing Fabio at Petco. Turns out, his best friend grew up near Fabio's house and he lives up in the hills near that Petco.
So, it definitely was FABIO. One of the funnier celeb sightings I've had. I've met plenty for work and such, but not FABIO!
Oh, he bought big sacks of dog food.
Love to you all!!!