Bitter Sushi Ladies: January Edition

[musicoholic]

 Welcome to the January Thread 

This is a thread for those who have been TTC for a long time, whether 6 months, 12 months, or more. At this point many of us are at or past 1 or 2 years, many have had losses, many are dealing with various forms of infertility, and some are just in a waiting period until they can TTC again.

The name? Well, all things considered we tend to be a little bitter sometimes. So read with care. And due to everything, our emotions run a little raw like sushi. Too many cycles of BFN and CD1 sushi & sake to console ourselves. This TTC business is something that seems to "just happen" for so many...but we just can't seem to get it right. So this is where we can be together, share and express anything.

Current Bitter Sushi Ladies

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33, and DH (36), TTC (his #2, my #1) off-and-on since November 2006

~AA~

Trying with DH since Feb 2008, on Clomid

amo4piano

ttc 11 months, one loss @ 10.5 weeks 9/2010 (blighted ovum)

Attached2Elijah

Hoping for #3 for 4 years and 3 months with 6 months hard TTC (charting, etc) after previous unexplained secondary infertility.

blueyezz4

TTC #1 (technically #4-long story) since 2006; Moving on to our first FET after 5 failed IUI's and 1 IVF

borobaby

TTC #2 for 7 months

collieflower

TTC #2 for 2 years, with 4 m/c (and another before DC#1)

enigo

Has one beautiful son, trying to conceive after three losses

inwaiting

TTC #1 for 14 months, with one ectopic.

indianagirl

36, TTC for a little over two years onto IUI and clomid

jane

4 losses since December 2008.  Now working with an RE 

jenger

Mama to DD (4/07) TTC #2 since August 2009. 

jennabella

TTC #2 since July 2009, with a loss in February 2010 and a loss in July 2010

justhinkn

TTC #2 since summer 2009, just starting IF testing with DH

keria

TTC #1 since October 2008.

kgulbransen

TTC since April 2010, 5 IUIs & 1 at home with frozen, all using HCG trigger; 5 at home insems with fresh donor, latest one Jan (try#11). Short luteal phase, otherwise all clear, have tried Femara and Clomid with no success. On to IVF in April??

kinza

TTC #1 since November 2008, with PCOS and Male Factor 

kparker

TTC #1 since 9/08 with male factor, IUI #1 with donor sperm Jan 2011

Kyamo

TTC#1 since Jan 2010 (with PCOS) 

laggie

TTC #1 since Fall 2009 with male factor issues

lapis

TTC #1 since August 2008. Living in a new country with a calmer lifestyle and trying not to get sucked into the TTC vacuum

lavatea

Has two lovely children, 6 and 3. Lost #3 at 18 weeks last November. Lost #4 pretty much right away, 4w6d in March. Lost #5 at 6w3d this past June. 

lilmom

35, ttc #2 for a year and a half with pcos and rarely ovulating

littlest birds

TTC for 16+ months after VR 

luminesce

TTC #2 since 4/2010 after 3 years of unexplained infertility with #1

mahnamahna

Mama to 1 amazing son, TTC #2 for one year, natural parenting blogger

millefleur

34, happily unmarried to my beloved DP since 2005. Started TTC our first in Summer 2008. Nine week miscarriage December 2008. TTC again since June 2009 without interventions

miriam bat avraham

TTC #1 for 24+ months, PCOS, normal SA, irregular cycles, currently on first cycle of Clomid & Ovidrel and IUI. 

monkeyscience

26, TTC #1 w/ PCOS since 6/2010, anovulatory the whole time. SA results good, RE appointment 1/17

musicoholic

Stop-start TTC#2 since April '06; no known fertility issues 

mrs.nap515

TTC #1 with DH. Hormone deficiencies and hypothalmic amenorrhea.

rcr

TTC since summer 2009, and NTNP since summer 2008 with male factor and one loss in August 2010. 36 YO 

silverbird

ttc #1 since June 2010, after a two year delay for illness.  Waiting for IVF. 

SimplyRochelle

TTC #1 on and off since 5/2007, m/c at 12 weeks 9/08.

Smilesarefree

36 year old mom of one wonderful dd trying for another since April 2010

sweet.bee

TTC #2 with late ovulation and an overworked husband 

sweetest77

38 y/o, TTC #3 since May 09, after VR

tara2

TTC #4 (#2 for DH) since October 2009, DH with low count

TTC3Years

TTC #1 for since December of ‘06

ZanneMom

TTC#2 for more than 12 months

 In our thoughts, on hold, and/or waiting 

BelovedK

Mama of 2 (15yo DS, 10yo DD). Wife to one incredible man. Residing in Central VA. TTC someone new since November 2008 with 2 m/c (Feb/09 and Jul/09). An avid bellydancer and firedancer, who works part time doing hair, and who is giving her loving energy nowadays more toward her DH than TTC

mi_dawn

lost baby William (born still 4/09) and two m/c in 09.

Milk8shake

26, TTC #1 since 4/09. Battling endo, uterine abnormality and recurrent pregnancy loss. Awaiting results before taking the next step, whatever that may be...

 BSL BFPs!!! Stick little babies, stick, stick, stick... 

slylives - due 6/2011

Tear78 - due 8/4/2011

Maurine - due 8/2/2011

CLH_X3 - due 7/13/11

kalamos23

xtara2003x - due 5/5/10

jenniferadurham - Due 4/2011

nanette56 - Due 4/2011 with twins!

babygrey - Due 4/2011

grapesbunch

finnegansmom - Due 2/11

barefootgirl - Due 12/10

rachwms - Due 11/10

 BSL BABIES 

jessica_s - Asher Kingston 1/20/11 

QBear'sMama - Jack Everett 12/17/10!

kellyttc#1 - Hilary & Charlotte 11/11/10!

YummyYumYumMama - Kieran 10/27/10!

lyndzies - Cadence James 10/15/10!

Carlyle - Maggie 10/9/10!

aidanraynesmom - Sloan Phoenix 9/10!

MaerynPearl - Maeryn Jean 9/27/10!

colorbywords - Emery Oaklynn 8/03/10!

LZP - Anna Veronica 7/18/10!

Pinoikoi - Ursula Marisol 6/23/10!

Lisko15 - Caleb Benjamin 6/24/10!

LINK to our graduates thread - New Year 2011 Edition!

Please let the threadkeeper know if your info needs to be updated.

New ladies are always welcome, but please join with care.

Edited by musicoholic - 1/30/11 at 4:00pm

[musicoholic]

Please let me know if I need to change anything or if anything's not in the right place.

I was going to try to think of a funky title...  but I just don't have the mental energy right now (holiday brain?).  Plus I kinda don't think any of us are really "Jolly January"-ish....  are we? 

Edited by musicoholic - 1/3/11 at 12:40am

[rcr]

Not much jolly going on here.

Thanks for the new thread, music.

[jenger]

Thanks for the new thread, Music.

(I didn't catch up on the old thread, I'm sorry - but you ladies are ALWAYS in my thoughts and hopes)

CD1 today.

HSG, here I come. I have to schedule it tomorrow. I am going to avoid sugar and flour this month, as it is potentially my last 'natural' cycle. And it marks 18 cycles. :cry
(Nope, no jolly here - I cried at the gym yet again.)

[collieflower]

Music - Thanks for starting the new thread! Could I have my information changed to TTC for two years with four miscarriages? Let's get some good conversations going, Ladies!

[BelovedK]

Hey music, I looked at my info, and wonder if you could change something. I also had a m/c in July 09 (that somehow got missed)

[collieflower]

Hi Beloved! Sorry you had such a crazy day; that's some scary situation (the threatening guy, that is).  Let's hope you're just using up your bad-luck quota early on in the year....

Jenger- Good luck tomorrow!  Here's to nice, clear tubes for you and a BFP this month. I have my fingers crossed.

AFM - I got AF on Friday! Normally of course this is crummy news, but for me this is the first AF post-miscarriage, and it only took until Day 35 to arrive.  Usually my post-miscarriage AFs take at least 42 days. I'm pretty happy about this. Maybe my body is just getting more efficient at this miscarriage thing. I mean, there has to be an upside, right?

[rcr]

I was just looking at the first post. Damn, there sure are a lot of bsls in the ttc list and few successes. Ugh. I want off this list so bad. I want us all off this list and on to the graduates thread.

[musicoholic]

Yep, not much jolly here either.    My DS woke up this morning, and the first thing he said to me was "Good morning mum!  Will you be pregnant in 3 days?"

Maybe I can fool myself into believing he knows something I don't...  even though I'm not even due to O until the weekend...  

jenger:  

collieflower and Beloved - I've fixed your info...  could you double check it for me please?  Thanks 

rcr:  I know what you mean.  Maybe we should toast to a New Year with New Fertility?  

Edited by musicoholic - 1/2/11 at 6:09pm

[Jane]

Thank you for the new thread, Music!!

Jenger, sorry about CD1. 

I think about as positive as I can be is "On the Road to Baby"

[Kinza]

Thanks for the new thread, Music. No jolly here either.

Sorry about AF, jenger.

I need chocolate.

[BelovedK]

Music, I had 2 m/c, tthe 7/09 one is correct. I am blanking on the other one, so it's ok.

[musicoholic]

Beloved, I tweaked it a little - let me know when you remember. xx

[collieflower]

Thanks Music. Looks good!

[BelovedK]

music, it was Feb 2009.

[musicoholic]

Beloved - done.   

[jessica_s]

Hi Music! We have some updates on a couple of babies born in recent months over on the BSL Graduates/Stalker thread. We're pretty slow :( I'm hoping for a new year with this list shrinking and the other list growing. I hope everyone able to find peace and a BFP or child this year!

[amo4piano]

hi...as much as i hate this, can i be added to this?

we've been trying 11 months now. one loss @ 10.5 weeks 9/2010. it actually was a blighted ovum. since the mc NOTHING has been normal. in fact, i don't think i've ovulated at all since the mc so time is just slipping away, month after month. And EVERYONE around me is pregnant. Seriously. Everyone.

i'll be 31 in 3 weeks and DH is 34...i feel like time is running short!

[musicoholic]

Thanks jessica_s!!  I think I've found most of them! 

Welcome amo4piano - I've added you (could you double check for me please?)  Hopefully you won't need to be here long.  

Edited by musicoholic - 1/2/11 at 8:40pm

[lilmom]

Music - could you please add me on the big list at the top of the thread? It could say something like "Lilmom - 35, ttc #2 for a year and a half with pcos and rarely ovulating" I joined on the Dec thread last night..Also, your letter from your son absolutely broke my heart!!!!!!! Luckily, DS only asked for a train and a ride on a giant panda this year! LOL. Didn't manage the panda.

Beloved - just wanted to tell you that I actually had an ovarian cyst removed when I was 15 and if you have one that is serious enough to cause delayed ovulation/af, you would be in serious pain. It was really, terribly painful. When I finally went to the hospital, I thought I had appendicitis. So, I'm still holding out some hope for you that your test was wrong.

jenger - good luck with the HSG!

rcr and LTB - thank you for the lovely welcome to the group! LTB, I could say exactly what you said about when you conceived DD. When I got pregnant with DS, I was 4 yrs younger, 25 lbs lighter, in better shape, and eating worse! I have wondered about hypothyroidism before for myself but when tested I always test normally. So, I'm not sure. I do know I have some blood sugar issues and I had gestational diabetes with DS. So, a few months back I cut out dairy and sugar just to see if it would help. But no. I didn't lose any weight or feel any better, honestly! So, I ended up slowly adding them back in. I still try to keep my sugar intake pretty low. Anyway, I really understand about feeling like nothing would help with the weight.

Welcome, Amo4piano! And sorry about the lack of ovulating since m/c. I hate not ovulating..even though for me there is a different cause..but it's so frustrating when you don't even have a chance at getting pregnant! I hope your body gets back with the program soon!

Collieflower - yay for a shorter time to get to AF this time around. What a wonderful way of thinking! That's how you're gonna get a baby one of these days!

Sorry if I'm forgetting anybody right now..I will get better at this as time goes on I'm sure..I just hope none of us have to be here much longer..but I'm so glad to have some support even though I hate it for everybody that's here. Come on New Year Fertility!