ZinniaGarden: Thanks mama! I'll check it out. :)
I came here to post some pretty light stuff, but didn't feel like I could continue until I address something I've seen here.
Flamama, you touched on something that has always been troublesome for me, about blaming myself. There's this awful feeling that I just don't want it enough, don't deserve it, or that if I could pinpoint some thing I did to blame everything on...but that's just not helpful at all. I just can't start letting my thoughts go that way. I'm imagining putting each of those toxic thoughts into bubbles and letting them float away.
Now for the light stuff.
I have a necklace a dear friend gave me, it's from Brazil, it's a little fist that is a fertility symbol and also means "good luck". I wore it a lot when TTC my daughter 4 yrs ago. I'm going to start wearing it again. Do you have anything like that?
And, is it silly to start preparing for a new baby? I haven't been able to stop myself. So far I've been scrutinizing my health insurance coverage, studying the websites of local hospitals, birth centers, midwives, I looked at all the maternity clothes at Old Navy, I picked out an awesome new car seat...I'm even embarrassed to admit I've started putting together a baby registry. Is this ok? Am I setting myself up for disappointment? Have I gone nuts?
Averlee - I totally get what you are saying and I agree that it is def not helpful to harbor those thoughts. I think it just takes time to come to terms with what happened and then those thoughts will lessen. But I will def try your imagery idea! Thanks!
And no I don't think it is crazy to begin looking around at things now. There is nothing wrong about getting your ducks in a row. :)
welcome flamama! Thank you for sharing with us about your loss, too. I'm so sorry, to all mamas who've been through this.
I wanted to let everyone know that I will keep up with the thread through the end of January, but am hoping someone can take over for February. I have decided to take a break from ttc, thinking about ttc, reading about ttc, etc, for at least a month. I wanna focus on my family and my over all health more, and am obsessing over ttc. I just don't think it's going to happen while nursing. At least as much as dd needs to nurse right now. I now understand why people need to take a break from this! Thanks everyone for your support of me, and of everyone in here. It's so nice to have a safe place to come to for support and understanding!
Well a new cycle for me...CD1 on time and that is great and all but I really do not like it as well. I had a 12 day leutal phase which is better but I wish it was longer. I am getting ready to start talkng to other Dr.'s. The one I have is just not clicking with me. THe one big concern I have is that when I asked about checking my progesterone due to my short Leutal Phases he just dismissed me saying that Progesterone was not really a good indicator b/c it fluctuates throughout the cycle. Okay so now I learn that if you check around 7DPO you can know if you actually ovulated and if you did, do you have a enough Prog. to maintain a pregnancy. That is a big thing for me. Especially if they are wanting to move onto IUI with me. Why move onto something so very $$$ when or if some Progesterone supplementation could help or work? Ugh!
From those who are more knowledgeable than I what is your experience with Progesterone?
Hoping everyone is doing okay.
Last day of January...looks like you'll be seeing me on the February thread too.
Today is CD 15. I usually ovulate on day 14 in the afternoon, but I don't think I did yesterday. I don't do OPKs and I don't take my temp, usually I can tell what's going on by my discharge. As far as I can tell nothing is going on at all.
But I had a dream about a sweet fat baby, and in the dream, this baby was mine and her name was Mable May.
Well I thought I was pregnant this week after a BFP on Tuesday, but now AF showed her ugly face 2 days late and had a BFN today, so I'm in day one of my new cycle. Hoping for a sticky baby this month. I don't chart temps, so I'm hoping I can just TTC every other day during my ovulation window. Anyone else not do temp charting? This is only our 2nd month of TTC so we will see what Feb brings us. Good luck to all the other 30+ TTC this month.