I have read that a 2 minute dopplar scan has the same amount of radiation as a 30 minute ultrasound because one is continuous and one is intermittent, so I have relaxed a tad that this has the same amount of possible harm as a quick check to hear the heartbeat. From now on, I am hoping to have no more ultrasounds and to use the fetascope.
I am having the ultrasound for me. I didn't last time and found ways to deal with the lack of answers that my control freak mind wanted. You just can't know everything about the baby and birth. There is no crystal ball. However, I am having a harder time getting there than last time. I just want to see a healthy baby on the screen. It will be nice to have a professional tell me that everything is normal. I really hope this decision doesn't come back to hunt me with false positives and scares and "risking out" of a peaceful home birth to have some doctor place well-intentioned-but-unnecessary interventions on me because of perceived risks. Ugh. I really just want to walk out of that office on Friday with a smile on my face at having seen (for the first time ever) the sweet shadow of my baby's face and their perfectly proportioned limbs and body. Please, God!
This is no judgement on doctors or hospitals or lovely people who have 5 ultrasounds a pregnancy. These are just not choices that work for me.
We are also thinking we'll keep the gender a secret, but who knows how we'll feel on Friday!