This is my third baby. For my first two I took Birthing From Within classes (Birthing Again for the second one) and I really enjoyed them partly because I really liked the instructor but also because I found that there was quite a bit of focus on the mental aspect of preparing for labour (facing fears etc.). My own philosophy about labour and birth is that in terms of prep, that's the most important part because at some point all your pain coping, breathing, distraction techniques etc. are going to fail you and it's going to become a mental game.
This time around I'm not bothering with a class and haven't been reading much either because most of the books focus on stuff I know already (stages of labour, interventions, etc.). So I haven't really been doing anything to prepare. It's hard to think of WHAT to do to prepare or even IF I need to prepare.
My previous labours were relatively short and easy - good births. Home births. No real interventions. Not a walk in the park. Painful but obviously I made it through. I know that I can do it and that's all good.
Yet, I feel like I ought to be doing SOMETHING to get ready. I just don't know what to do. I started reading some books and watching birth videos with the kids recently but honestly, that's actually put the fear and dread in me!! I remember how much it hurt and how NOT fun it is and I'm just starting to feel like "ugh, I don't want to do it" - it's making me feel like maybe I shouldn't bother with the books and birth stories etc. because they are causing me to stress out.
I normally love all that stuff but right now, a video of a crowning baby just makes me clamp my legs closed and cringe!! When I'm not pregnant I look forward to the birth in the sense that it's such a rush, the challenge, the euphoria, the kind of out of body-ness of it...but right now, um, not so much.
Anyone else feeling this way?? Ideas for coping? Thoughts? Commisseration? Experienced mamas - what do you usually do?