Hi there. Just had my midwife appointment. Baby still not here 41w5d. Agreed to a membrane sweep. Midwife tired, but could not reach my cervix. Apparently baby is just not down there enough. She stated wondering what the problem is. I have had cramps and BH since 37 weeks, so we have thought we would have this baby a long time ago! So now we are wondering what the problem might be. Midwife is not sure that the baby has not gone breech again, she thinks it is head down, but just not sure. It is lateral posterior in any case. I decided to go in for a little ultrasound tomorrow lunchtime to see what the problem is. If it is breech, they just want to do a csection pretty quickly, there is no one that is qualified to do a breech for a FTM apparently.
Before the midwife did the internal check we were thinking about getting an induction with the prostaglandin cream sometime early next week, my midwife is lovely and has really been trying to get me the natural, waterbirth, hypnobabies homebirth that I have wanted. It jsut seemed to all go south today. First I was trying to get my head around an induction, although she said they would just do the gel, and try like crazy to avoid pitocin. So that is when I decided the membrane sweep sounded good for today, but when we tried she found the baby was not where it was supposed to be. That was my first internal check, they are a lot less interventionist here.
I got a lot of plug out yesterday. I have been losing plug since 37 weeks, and getting some great practice runs! But it seems like something may be wrong as my body is trying so hard to get the baby out but nothing is happening. baby is just not low enough to push on cervix. I just don't understand what. Been looking after my health and researching like crazy to try to give baby the best birth possible and I don't even understand this. Tried so long to conceive too, thought that was hard enough, did not realize it would be such a challenge to get baby out too! So I am just confused and upset, I need some time to process all of this. Don't know what is wrong or what I can do about it. Will be just so heartbroken to get a csection, been trying so hard to do everything to avoid it, prepare myself and be educated, but right now I just don't know which way is up.
And on top of that the damn chiro is closed today, was planning just to run there for help! But baby seems healthy, active and is kicking like crazy, so that is good. I know the most important thing is a healthy baby, it is just so hard to get my head around nature maybe just not going right or not being able to give my baby that 'ideal' birth. Any feedback? I just don't know what to think right now, just too upset. Thanks.