Awww Orangemoon, that dream sounds lovely! I love having dreams like that, especially when they leave you with such a peaceful feeling. I would love to be near the beach when giving birth, it's my most favorite place to be. We only live about 45 minutes away but it's too far for me :)
In other news mamas, I have my midwife appointment next week and I want to cancel it. I don't necessarily want to discontinue care all together yet, I want to buy myself more time to make a 100% decision. I know in my heart what I want to do, but I guess taking the jump and actually saying out loud to someone (other than dh and on here) "We are going to have a free birth" is a bit intimidating to me. I guess I don't want a confrontation? Not that I think my midwife will be ugly about it (she really is a lovely woman), but I don't even want to answer questions or feel I have to qualify what I'm saying. I don't know, maybe I'm just over thinking it. A close friend suggested keeping care and having an "oops", which would work if insurance was paying, but we have such a high deductible I'm not willing to pay which is essentially the entire mw fee out of pocket "just in case". I don't think she'd be willing to be 100% hands off-either, and if I want 100% hands-off, why not just do it alone? lol
I guess I'm in that place where "we think we want to do this" and "we are DEFINITELY doing this" meets and I'm a bit nervous.
I was seeing a hospital based midwife w/ my third, but decided at 25 weeks to have a HB instead. I was so worried about telling her, but she was totally cool. You have two options, tell her or just stop going and tell her nothing.