I'm not sure why, but the last two cycles have had me really, really down. Like verging on tears, bad mood, obsessing about not getting pregnant. We've been trying for 2 years now, and for the most part I've actually been pretty okay about it all, so I don't know why I feel so down lately.
I finally stopped nursing my 3.5 year old in November, so maybe I had higher hopes for my first cycles without nursing? I also started acupuncture last cycle - I didn't have unrealistic hopes that it would work right away or anything. And then I got a prescription for Clomid to start this cycle, but DH and I decided at the last minute not to take it. Now we're trying to get an appt with a fertility specialist, and I also want to see if I can get a free initial consultation with a naturopath recommended by the acupuncturist. All of a sudden, I'm feeling this frantic need to figure out what's wrong - whereas during the past 2 years, I was way more laid back about it. I don't know why I'm obsessing about it all of a sudden. Maybe it's the uncertainty of it all - tests haven't found anything wrong, so there's nothing to fix.
All I know is I hate feeling so down, and I worry that obsessing about it is just going to make me feel worse, and definitely not help us get PG. Fertility sucks :(