I know I have not been that active in this forum as I have had a difficult pregnancy now delivery. I posted a couple days ago about my scheduled c section and fear of something being wrong. Well my instinct was right. Gunnar James 8lbs 8oz 21 inches blue eyes and black hair heart stopped while on monitors waiting for surgery. I would post pictures but i do not think it is appreciate, His heart rate was slow to begin with and it all happened so fast there was nothing the Dr could do. He had pooped while inside me and they say he swallowed and suffocated on it. I never have been in so much pain in my life, I would have never imagined the kinda pain I am going thru. I do not wish this on anyone.. It feels like my heart is being ripped from my chest and stomped on. thank you for reading, I am still in shock and even sometimes I feel "movements" and think i am still pregnant, that this is all a dream.
my little guy was born sleeping at 39 weeks 1/12
i am so very, very sorry to hear about your pain. it is considerate of you to think of others before posting your pictures, but i think you should feel comfortable posting a link. i am certain he was just as beautiful as all the other babies that have been born this month have been. we can all take responsibility for deciding whether or not we want to look. i hope you were connected to Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep for the photos.
really, my heart aches for you and your family. i am SO sorry :( .
Oh god, I was so hoping that the title of your post didn't mean what I thought it did. I am so sorry for your tragic loss. I hope you have a lot of support from very sensitive and loving people. Please don't feel it's inappropriate to post pictures of your son. Hugs, and know that Mothering moms are thinking of you.
I am so sorry!! ((((hugs)))) I have BTDT. It is hell. I kept asking people..will I ever forget? I wanted to forget! They would tell me, you won't forget. You will accept and move on. I was so devastated, I actually have amnesia from the funeral until a month later.
((((hugs))))) I am just so sorry!
I am so sorry for your loss. This happened to DH and I last March. It is the worst pain ever and your brain plays horrible tricks on you. For weeks I would forget that I wasn't still pregnant too. Now, almost a year later, just remembering that day hurts but it does get better. You go from constant pain to occasional pain, and I'm sure eventually we will feel almost normal. Take your time healing and don't feel like you have to explain what happened to anyone you don't feel like. Sometimes that is the hardest part, having to tell what happened over and over again. When you have time I would look up the phases of grief. I would've been a lot better off if I had known those because it would've helped understand why I was feeling the way I was, etc., and helped me get to the next phase. http://www.irisremembers.com/