I think I'm going to lose my mind.

[WindyCityMom]

Please help.  I just feel very run down and depressed.  Today is really bad.  I'm yelling at DD and saying things I don't mean.  I'm being overly agressive.  I hardly slept last night because someone pointed out my DD's sacral dimple and stork bite on her lower butt and I was doing reading.  I just feel like crap.  I don't feel like myself at all today.  I feel bad for my DD, but I almost feel like (when I'm yelling, etc) that I'm on the outside looking in, and am not "me" until it's over and done with and can only think of "oh s--- what did I do...".  I feel like this a few times a week, namely when I don't get enough sleep (in this case three hours of half-sleep). 

Any quick pick-me-ups for a sudden onset of depression?

I've been trying to lay in bed with my other DD and just try to sleep but she wants to get up and play and I don't want my older DD to feel alone.  But I suppose being alone playing and coloring (in the same room, btw) is better than being yelled at and guilted and all kinds of horrible stuff.

I feel like a horrible mom.

I need a hug and a babysitter.

No one can watch the kids (well, MIL, but that's another story that I'd rather not think about).

[mexicali mami]

I know that feeling.  I would try some flower essences, sometimes a quick cold shower can change your mood.  A B-complex vitamin will give you a little burst of energy if you feel run down.  If you are snapping a lot, perhaps limit your caffeine.  If it goes on for a while, or even if you are spiraling in and out of depression, it's time to see a therapist.  I can't tell you how much it's helped me to get a third party opinion and help me see things the way they really are. 

[sbgrace]

I think sleep would be a huge help. That is so little sleep. Anyone would have mood/temper/etc. issues on that type of sleep. Is there a way you can get more? Can your husband take over at times so you can sleep? I wouldn't hesitate to sleep when you can even if the older child has to self entertain. That's ok. She needs a mom not burning out more than someone to sit with her so she doesn't have to color alone.

I think it's sleep so I don't feel like any suggestions for depression or etc. would really be helpful to you.

[WindyCityMom]

Thanks.  I'm half thinking it's sleep deprivation and half thinking it's some kind of nutrient deficiency.. I'll be taking CLO, Floravital (GF floradix), and a multi and we'll see how it goes.  I think part of it is also hormonal.. I have another thread about that.  Geesh, I feel all over the place.  I felt a lot better today though.