Just got the news....my hemoglobin (despite me doing everything to raise it) has stayed at exactly 88. My homebirth option is GONE.
I am crying so hard I can barely breath.......
Oh mama, I am so sorry. I cried for two days when I lose my homebirth, then I got mad, then I was able to accept it. In the end, I was glad it happened the way it did because I truly believe had I not gone to the OB my midwife recommended and become an established patient, that I would have ended up with a c-section. I hope you still have a wonderful birth. I am so sorry for all you are going through though. I remember feeling so betrayed by my body. :(
Okay in the US I think my hemoglobin would be 8.8. I have been doing everything possible to raise it for a month now. The number hasn't budged. AT ALL.
Yes.....for right now I will still have my midwife attend. I guess that is good.
Right now, I am trying to cling onto hope that I can find some miracle that will get my homebirth back. ANYTHING.
And I just wanted to share that I had planned a birth center birth, but had to be induced at 38 weeks for a condition that could've been harmful to my baby. My midwife was able to deliver me in the hospital and we had a really wonderful, minimal intervention birth (which is rare to say about a medically necessary induction). In some ways I feel like this birthing experience was more hands-off than my oldest's birth center birth. I think having a care provider who respects your opinions and assists you in making decisions instead of making them for you can make all the difference regardless of where you birth. NOTHING was done to me without my permission. Every choice that was made was MY choice. I am thrilled with my daughter's birth even though it wasn't at all what we had planned. She was born on the floor of our hospital room bathroom. She came so fast she was almost born into the toilet and the midwife barely got into the bathroom in time to help me catch her. It was nothing I ever envisioned. And it was perfect.
I'm hoping for a perfect hospital birth for you too. But go ahead and allow yourself to grieve over losing your homebirth. Don't let anyone tell you how you should feel.