My anxiety is over the bloody top!!!

[abbylotus]

Since I started back to school this semester my anxiety is out of control. I take a bunch of medications but they don't seem to be doing the trick. I just had a panic attack in anatomy class. It felt like I was dying. I wanted to run out but I didn't want to cause a scene. I don't see my pdoc until next month and I can't get in any earlier - I tried. I have been trying deep breathing, positive self talk, and brach's flower essence...all to no avail. I can't live like this. I am barely sleeping any my eating is all jacked up. I have bipolar disorder and that is managed well but the anxiety is too much to bear.

[babygrant]

Originally Posted by abbylotus 

Since I started back to school this semester my anxiety is out of control. I take a bunch of medications but they don't seem to be doing the trick. I just had a panic attack in anatomy class. It felt like I was dying. I wanted to run out but I didn't want to cause a scene. I don't see my pdoc until next month and I can't get in any earlier - I tried. I have been trying deep breathing, positive self talk, and brach's flower essence...all to no avail. I can't live like this. I am barely sleeping any my eating is all jacked up. I have bipolar disorder and that is managed well but the anxiety is too much to bear.

Can you go to the emergency department?  Having to wait a whole month to see your doctor when your having severe anxiety is just unacceptable.  *hugs*

[abbylotus]

Originally Posted by babygrant 

Originally Posted by abbylotus 

Since I started back to school this semester my anxiety is out of control. I take a bunch of medications but they don't seem to be doing the trick. I just had a panic attack in anatomy class. It felt like I was dying. I wanted to run out but I didn't want to cause a scene. I don't see my pdoc until next month and I can't get in any earlier - I tried. I have been trying deep breathing, positive self talk, and brach's flower essence...all to no avail. I can't live like this. I am barely sleeping any my eating is all jacked up. I have bipolar disorder and that is managed well but the anxiety is too much to bear.

Can you go to the emergency department?  Having to wait a whole month to see your doctor when your having severe anxiety is just unacceptable.  *hugs*

 I ended up going to the ER. My moods ended up being all over the place and I started "hearing" phones ringing everwhere (ie. during lectures and labs) which weren't ringing and I saw "The Man Who Isn't There" sitting in on my geometry class lecture. I had seen him before five years ago. He looks like a Hunter S. Thompson character...sun glasses, white member's only jacket, hat, white slacks and always smoking a cigarette. I knew it was time to get some help and there was no waiting around. The last time I saw that dude I checked myself into the pysch ward for two weeks. I called my shrink's office before I went to the ER to see if there was some sort of outpatient therapy I could do, the nurse told me to take myself to the ER asap. I refused to admit myself voluntarily because there were no beds at out local hospital and I would have to drive 9hrs to a more urban pysch ward and I wasn't down with that. My doctor is going to see me on Wed, I have an appt with my therapist on Tues, and I have a phone conference with another therapist on tomorrow on Mon. I dropped my classes, quit my part time job - it's time to get my mental health in check. My family is a big stresser but seeing as they aren't going anywhere I felt I needed to eliminate what I can and work myself back up. I am especially upset about dropping out of school because I made the dean's list last semester w/out many problems. I am going to have to take summer classes to catch back up. Ironically, I am going for my nursing degree. Right now, I am taking it one step at a time. My DH works CRAZY hours but my IL's are more than willing to help me out with the kids and they are in school all day so that helps. It seems as soon as I owned up to my anxiety and admitted there were underline issues it has cleared up considerably. However, I am still seeing that dude here and there, but I will get a med adjustment on Wed and that will help with that, too. One day at a time, Mamas.....