I'm 28w3d today and I just need to whine a little. This is my 7th week of bedrest. I hurt. My hips hurt, my ribs hurt, my gut hurts, my arms are even starting to hurt. Every week I'm contracting more and more. I finally have an Rx for terb. It quiets things down but makes me feel awful. My cervix started at 4cm, went down to 2cm, and thankfully back up to 3.4cm but with some funneling. Since the last measurement I just feel like I always did in previous pregnancies in the days leading up to labor: just generally cruddy, with terb symptoms thrown on top. I have another appointment and cervical length measurement tomorrow and I'm kind of afraid of what they see. Even though I've been able to control the contractions for the most part. I'll also have another fetal fibronectin- those have been negative, thank goodness (last one about 10 days ago).
I'm just tired of being in bed, tired of having to rely on people for everything, tired of feeling gross because showers get my contractions going so I'm only feeling okay about a couple a week, tired of missing out on life with my kids (they come hang out in my room sometimes, but it's not the same), tired of this load on my husband who is trying to take care of the house and me and find a new job all at once. I want to keep my babies where they are as long as possible, but I feel a little worse every day and it makes me wonder how long that will be. This is such a drag.