I am so ashamed of my behavior and I need to let it out, I lost control with my daughter today, what set me off was so stupid and little but I can now see it was a build up. I hate the fact that I am like this. I got to the point of red, Rage. The only thing I wanted to do was to be hurtful and mean. Why do people get this way? I dont know how to change this behavior please help!!! I said some really bad stuff and did something I thought I would never do. Tried to put a bar of soap in the mouth. What the Heck was I thinking. then told her I didn't like the way she was behaving (thats not bad) but told her I felt like walking out the door and not coming back. WTH!!! I was telling her things that I would tell a friend while I was venting you know. I messed up and never want it to get this way again. My mother was the same way hurtful mean and when I think of the way I felt so much hate for her, that is not what I want her to feel for me. Where do you go from here?
A mother in need of other Mothers ;-)